This Moment

Chapter 38

**Tyler's pov**

-Please leave the message after the tone

BEEP-

"Hey... Felix..." I pause. "Can you come over please I really need you." I cry softly into the phone.

After like 3 minutes I hear my phone buzz on the table and I pick it up and I see Felix is calling me and I pick it up. "Hello Felix"

"Hey baby, What's wrong?" He says with a highly concerned tone in his voice.

"I feel like Eli betrayed me and I feel kind of broken by it, i kind of just want your company with me but if you cant thats okay i understand." I say softly.

"Baby, im always here for you. Ill kick his ass to narnia if i have to." He laughs.

I giggle, knowing that he wont do shit to him.

"Ill be over in 20 minutes hon, okay? Bye babe." He says and hangs up.

I kind of get cheered up a little when i realize he is coming over but then the sadness comes back when i remember eli.

After 20 minutes i hear a knock at the door and I open it and Let Felix in, "Hey babe" he says and kisses my forehead.

I immdiately burst into tears and I hold onto Felix.

Me and him sit on the couch and talk for a little bit then it turns into making out...

I look into his eyes as he slips off my shirt and I feel so insecure about myself. "Tyler.. your so skinny." He says as his eyes travel my body. I go to grab my shirt but he grabs my hand and kisses it, "your beautiful just the way you are tyler." He says and my heart melts.

I kiss him again as he begins to slide off my pants and then his.

As I kiss him I look down at his boxers and I see he is hard and I look at myself and I see im.. like not hard at all and it weirds me out that im not getting hard over thinking of felix...  Im getting hard over thinking of Eli...

I feel his hand set on my thigh and I shiver. Then he slides his hand to the hem of my boxers and I get nervous.

He stops kissing me and looks me in the eyes, "You're okay with this right?"

I nod slowly.

He grabs girly scented lotion out of his bag... Wait Why is that there in the first place...

He rubs it on his left hand, left handed bitch. And he slips his hand into my boxers and grabs... It

(Okay. I don't think you have a fucking clue how weird this is for me for writing this... About my best friend okay... Sorry if it seems weird or anything and sorry te for giving you nightmares.)

He moves his hand up and down fastly, I mean it's giving me some pleasure but I keep thinking of how Good Eli would be doing this... I have a fucking boyfriend and I hate Eli.

I immediately have a panic attack and I rip his hand out of my boxers and I curl up into a ball.

"Tyler? What's wrong, did I hurt you?" He asks me.

I don't answer.

"Tyler."

"Im okay this is just weird." I whisper.

"Are you a virgin or something?" He whispers.

"Yeah... Well... No... To girls no but to boys yes." I say quietly.

He looks at me in shock, "you fucked a girl?"

I nod slowly.

"Wow."

"Tyler." He pauses. "I know you like Eli."

He says and I stare at him and I realize.. he is right..