A Second Chance(discontinued)

Letter

Ji Ul's POV
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I was sitting on my chair by the window, not doing anything, just, sitting. I stared at the greenery outside, and eventually started to doze off from the cooling breeze blowing in.

"Ji Ul ah, shouldn't you go outside a bit? You have been keeping yourself in the house for the past few days, not to mention that you haven't even been doing anything in here." My mom entered the room with a bunch of laundry and said.

I rubbed my eyes and looked at her. "I'm fine, and I don't want to go out." I answered, and stood up to go to the bathroom to wake myself up. When I came back, my mom had already left.

I sat back down on the chair and continued with spacing out, until an alert on my phone interrupted me. I checked it, and saw it was a message from Maria unnie. "Come to the park, where we talked last time."

Glad to finally have a goal from going outside, I informed my mom and went out. It was afternoon, and the heat from the sun while walking was making me hungry, added on with the silence of the roads and frequent breezes blowing past was also making me sleepy.

I arrived at the park and noticed Maria unnie already there, and she seemed to be holding onto something. I dragged myself over, and stopped in front of her.

"Oh, you're here, I almost thought you weren't going to come." She said, and held up the thing she was holding. An envelope. "I received this earlier in the morning, and it was addressed to you. Why didn't it get to you then?"

"What?" I took the envelope, and studied it. My name was written on it as the addressee. "Who would send me a letter? That's really old-fashioned, they could just text or e-mail me....." I turned the envelope around in my hands, looking for anything, and noticed some smudged ink at the very corner of the material.

I scrutinised it, but wasn't able to read it, maybe partly because I was in a half-asleep state. Maria unnie joined in, peering closely at the ink, before reeling back in surprise.

"If I'm not wrong, it says Ryu Tae Oh." She said.

"No way. He's.....who knows where he is right now. Impossible." I denied.

"I'm not saying he's the sender."

"Oh, right." I slapped myself mentally for jumping to conclusions. "But why would his name be here?"

"I don't know. Open it and see."

I tore open the envelope, sliding out the piece of paper. It was of a decent length, but what caught my attention were the three small characters scrawled at the corner of the paper. 'Ryu Tae Oh'.

"He did write this....." I mumbled.

"What does it say?" Maria unnie asked.

I started to read out the content out loud.

"Ji Ul, I know you're reading this. I don't care if someone else is also reading it, it doesn't matter considering where I am, but what I say is all directed towards you.

Okay, so one of the guards over here was talking to me about you. Apparently his daughter reads your webtoons and so he heard about you, and that you and I have connections. He said that his daughter read a rumour that you weren't doing well, that's why you aren't updating your webtoon. Don't question how but word got to me that Oh sunsaeng said you were lonely. I'm only saying this to explain why I even bothered to write this letter.

I don't know what got to me, but I was just tempted to send this to you. Hopefully you would be able to understand in your state, and not misunderstand. This is the first time I'm actually revealing this to anyone, I suppose you could count yourself lucky.

Ever since I was young, my dad didn't like me one single bit, I bet he despised me. He claimed I was a monster after seeing me throw my brother around. My mom defended me, but soon after, even she gave up. They blamed me for everything, and I had to put up with it. I know I wasn't normal, but I was still a young child yearning for some love. Isn't that normal? The lack of it made me hate them, and so when Gapdongi came around and made my father leave for good, he was my hero.

That was last time. I can still feel that my mom doesn't like me. Which mother would give their son death pills to help them escape from a tight spot, even if their son is a killer?

Don't misunderstand my reason for telling you this, it's simply hope that someone might understand me, and in your state of mind, you could be that someone.

If Oh sunsaeng is also reading this, I would like to say that I would be back. I have no idea when, but I definitely I would, so she can help me to change for the better. You can help too if you want, but that would be in the future, wait for it."

The letter ended there. I had no idea Tae Oh could write such things. I looked up at Maria unnie, she was already done and was looking back at me. Did she already know about this?

As if reading my thoughts, she spoke. "I had no idea Tae Oh had such a past, it sort of explains quite a bit, I suppose."

"Oh....." Truthfully, I knew how he must have felt at that time, the fact that no one is really here for you, and that you are all alone and must fend for yourself.

"Isn't this enough for you to feel that someone does understand you too?" Maria unnie suddenly asked.

"I think so....."

"So would you at least try to feel better and let us help you?"

".....I will try....."

"Good. Now let's go, you already have an appointment with me."

A/N: I know some of you out there might think this way: Tae Oh didn't become a killer because he was hurt by a past and such, he became one following his own decisions. He never feels anything. But I just want to say to those people, that could be true, in the drama at least, but this is how I'm writing it such that the story can at least progress more, so please do respect it.

I will still upload another chapter at the usual day later this week, as I feel this is shorter. ^^

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