Unwanted by Matthew

I don't belong here.

I looked at Mahogany after she asked that question. Pulling out one of my bags, "My sister." I responded.
She nodded her head and smiled. "Well, that and we go to school together." I said, correcting myself. "Matt is such a sweetheart and I wish you guys the best." Mahogany said, grabbing one of my bags.
As we started to walk back up the stairs, I looked at her.
"You're so perfect." I exclaimed. She looked at me and gave me the biggest smile, "Thank you!" she replied, giggling.
"Who's room am I staying in?" I questioned.
"That's a perfect question. Let me ask." Mahogany said. I smiled as we stepped inside of the house.
"Hey Nash, where is she staying?" Mahogany questioned Nash. Matt was quick to speak up, "With me!" he said. She looked at me and smiled, "There you go, come with me." Mahogany said.
I followed her to Matt's room.
"And here is where Matthew stays." she said, still with a gorgeous smile on her face. The room was so different then his room at Cam's. I dropped my bags, for some reason, I started to feel alone, like I shouldn't be here because I didn't belong. The feelings I had must have put a concerning expression on my face, because Mahogany was quick to speak. "You okay?" She asked, confused. I couldn't help but nod, "I just need time alone." I responded.
She nodded her head and walked out, carefully closing the door.
I could hear her pink heals hit the wood floors as she walked away. I slowly fell to the floor, holding onto my face. I started to cry, why was I being so emmotional? I layed there crying for 15 minuets, before I heard someone ask about me.
"Hey, where is your girl at?" Nash asked. I couldn't hear what Matt said, but all I thought about after that was, "He doesn't care Ariel!"
Finally, there was knock at the door. I froze and looked up. The door opened, "Ariel? You in here?" Matt asked.
As he opened the door more, he saw me laying there, crying with make up all down my face. "What's wrong?" Matt asked confused. I shook my head, every possiable thought was tearing my heart apart. Matt walked over to me, slowly with caution.
"Baby? Talk to me." Matt said.
I looked up, "I don't belong here, Everyone here is so perfect and out going and then there is just me!" I cried. "Babe, no one minds you here.." Matt said before I cut him off,
"I mean, look at me, look at my wrist, look at my face. I'm worn and used. Then look at Mahogany she is so full of life." I cried.
Matt looked at me pulling up his sleeve, "look at my wrist." he whispered. Just hearing that was music to ears, only because the thought of cutting soothed me.
Matt walked to the door closing it gentally.
"Come here." Matt exclaimed rubbing the bed. I slowly got up off my feet, wiping each tear that still fell carefully down my face. I walked over to the bed, watching his every move.
I was tired of being hurt, I needed someone solidly there for me, and I couldn't shake this feeling that Matt wasn't the one.
As I climbed up in bed with him, he instantly pulled me close to him, placing my head on his chest. I could hear his heart beat, every breath he inhaled and exhaled. I couldn't ask for anything more, but for me to close my eyes as he rubbed his soft fingers up and down my back, giving me goosebumps. As he slowly started to stop, I could tell he was falling asleep and so was I.