Jessica was in her bed, lying on her tummy while leafing through a random magazine. Her elbows propped on the white bed sheets as one hand turned the pages, the other holding a cordless phone to her ear. Her face showed nothing but pure boredom. Obviously, both the magazine and the person on the phone failed entertaining her.
"... and so I locked her out of the bedroom that night. She had to sleep on the couch. The next day I woke up and I found her on the ground! She fell down Jessi, my poor girl."
"Uh huh."
Tiffany went on telling Jessica about the quarrel between Taeyeon and her. If it was something really serious and Tiffany was down, Jessica could never be this indifferent. But the thing was just, that girl on the other end of the line was babbling about a fight two days ago. Taeyeon and her had made up now and were happily together again - making Jessica see no point in having to listen to every detail like this. Jessica had frowned in the beginning, because behind Tiffany's whining voice, she swore she had heard some kissing sounds. And after Tiffany accidentally moaned into the phone, the lie got revealed. Tiffany argued it wasn't a lie but rather an omission - she was just about to tell Jessica they had made up two days ago. Afterwards, Jessica decided to let Tiffany's voice go in one ear and out the other.
Jessica, being the smart girl that she was, knew too well where Taeyeon and Tiffany were trying to get to. It wasn't just coincidence that the two always broached their relationship when talking to Jessica, or being even more obvious and acted all lovey-dovey in front of her. Everything was done just to make Jessica feel jealous, to remind her of how sweet a relationship - and in this case her relationship with a workaholic - could be, to force her to admit - at least to herself - that she missed Yuri. But no, Jessica wasn't going to fall into their trap.
She had made up her mind. She was not going to be naive again, not going to follow her heart blindly again. Jessica was selfish once - and she'd had to pay a terrible price. She was disgusted by Kwon Jiyong, was scared by his whole family for being behind his back, ordering him to take advantage of her feelings. Even though Kwon Yuri left her family for years, Jessica couldn't take the risk. Not when it's about a Kwon. Not again.
Jessica would forget Yuri. And it's not going to be hard - or so she hoped.
"Jessi... Are you sleeping? Jessica! Jung Sooyeon! Hello? Strawberry!? Melon!? Cucumber!? Yuw--"
"I'm not sleeping."
"Then why didn't you say anything? I asked you if you're still staying home."
"Yes, I am. I think I'll go to work next week. Dad isn't really in need of me right now."
"You haven't told uncle you will start working, have you? Well, I guess that's the advantage of being the president's daughter. Anyway, Taeyeon's calling me. Dinner time." Jessica heard an amorous chuckle coming from the other end of the line and rolled her eyes.
"Have fun."
Jessica said and hung up. Why did Tiffany and Taeyeon get together that easily? They only had to live sixteen years to find one another, and from the day they met, never once did they doubt each other's feelings. Why couldn't such a miracle happen to her as well? Why did she have to be cheated on, to be used, to be hurt and pained and still couldn't find her true love? Why was life so unfair to her?
Because you don't have faith in life, a voice inside her spoke. You don't even believe in love.
I used to believe in 'him' and his love - but he just used me, she argued.
Because he wasn't the one, the voice continued.
How am I supposed to know if Yuri is? She stubbornly asked back.
