Inside that dark place
a little glimpse of light
points me to the direction of my shadow
how do I look??
all I see is imperfection
it drilled a hole in my heart
my own shadow laughed at my face
nothing I want to be was in my shadow
my fears and pains filled that dark self
The mix of my heart beat
is the sound my soul dances to
the drop of hot blood causing heat
thickens and builds me a tomb
slowly I feel strength leave me
my eyes begin to fail me
my mind going back and forth
while my body weakens
Dinning at the table of sin
masturbation stares at me
fornication looks like me
my lies were set free
I'll need to be washed clean
but cheating comes pouring on me
I recognize everything
these things made me weak
the only thing that gives me the chills
is that suicide is scaring me
is that my next sin?
I need that peace of mind
but the loudness of silence denies
giving me time to see my cries
my cries reflect my pain
I am alone in disdain
and nightmares leave me insane
with mainly nothing to gain
my cloudy flesh let out rain
my soul rues this day
because my death will bring me fame
I am left in that dust
I try to repaint my pain
but my heart forever rusts
sands of time going through my veins
without love at arm's length
I couldnt quench my thirst
now I feel different
since the day I got here
I thirst in the dust.
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I Am Numb
PoetryAt some point in life, feeling like the world matters to you and you don't matter to it begins to feel like a norm and you just can't escape. Slowly you get eaten up by the hate fed to you by the world that you begin to feel less until suddenly, not...
