josh + olivia

chapter six.

JOSHUA POV

"what?" we all question julia

"she was not eating a lot and she even got the smallest thing on the menu. from where i was sitting since it was right beside her it looked like she was shaking and then when i went in the bathroom to look for her it sounded like someone was throwing up. when i asked if she was sick she just replied with "no i'm definitely not sick" and walked out. i think maybe she is starving herself" she says and we all have shocked expressions

"i've noticed lately something was off. she always says she's not hungry or doesn't finish her food but i never knew it was this bad" sofia replies

"when i walked in her trailer to ask her if she wanted to come today she seemed off almost like she wasn't there and when i first asked her she said no but then changed her mind. i kept asking her if she was okay she would just nod and stay silent." i tell them

we all turn around to look at liv and she is walking with her hands in her jean pockets and her head down. she looks up a little revealing her red and puffy eyes

"it looks like she's crying" joe says in a whisper

"is it a girl thing or could i try to talk to her about it if she wants to?" i ask sofia and julia

"first of all, that is the sweetest thing i've ever heard and second, yes you should try to talk to her. even if she doesn't tell you what's wrong just be there to comfort her" julia replies with a smile

we arrived at the cars and frankie,julia, joe, sofia, and matt all waited beside my car until olivia got there a few moments later since she was behind us

"hey, you ready to go?" i ask in a soft tone. she just nods and gives a small wave to the others as she gets in the car. i let out a small sigh as i say bye to everyone and get in the car. this car ride is identical to the other just being silent. when we get to the apartment the others have arrived and we all walk to the elevator together while olivia walks in front of us keeping her head down. they all give me a look almost as if asking what happened and i just shake my head to say that nothing happened. when the door opens olivia is the first one out and walks straight to her room without even a goodbye. we all head to our rooms and i wait for everyone else to go to their rooms before i head to knock on olivia's door. 

OLIVIA POV

i'm so glad to finally be back in my room. i start full on breaking down once i close my door. i'm so tired of pretending that i'm always okay. it had been a few minutes when i hear a knock on my door. i just try to ignore it because i look like a mess. it had been two or three minutes when i heard a familiar voice 

"hey liv? i'm coming in" it was josh. i get up off the floor and walk towards the door to see him walking in. "sorry i was just coming to check on you, are you sure you're okay?" he asks in that comforting tone. "yep" i reply without making eye contact. i hear him sigh a little "okay then, just let me know if you need anything" he says as he opens his arms for a hug and i immediately go into his arms and after a few short seconds i completely break down and just let everything out. i tell him all about my anxiety, my sleeping problems, and my eating problems. after staying like in his arms for a few minutes i pull back as he kisses my forehead. "sorry i just let out all of my problems on you, i know you probably think i'm weird or-or stupid i-" he cuts me off. "no olivia i would never think those things about you. no matter what you have going on, do you understand?" he replies. i nod slightly. " i should go i have to take a shower and go to bed early before filming tomorrow" he says as he gives my another hug and walks out the door

later that night

i roll over in my bed for the tenth time to check my phone "ugh how is it only 11:30?" i think to myself as i let out a sigh and roll back over. i was starting to have another panic attack and i couldn't sleep. after a few minutes of thinking, i grab my pink blanket and my phone and turn off my tv before i headed out the door. when i reached the room number that i knew josh stayed in i knocked on the door. after a few minutes i decided to try opening the door and thankfully it was unlocked. i've been in his apartment before so i knocked slightly on the door before opening it. at this point my anxiety attack was getting worse and i was crying. i couldn't breathe and was trying to find my way to his room when my legs started getting shaky and i almost collapsed many times when i felt something grab my shoulders "hey what's wrong liv?" josh asks in almost a whisper. "i-i'm having a a-anxiety att-attack" i manage to choke out. it goes silent for a few seconds before i feel myself being lifted in someone's arms and being carried somewhere. josh must have sensed me getting tense because he speaks up "don't worry livi i'm just taking you to the bed okay?" i nod as i dig my head into his chest and try to breathe. he lays me gently on the bed and i sit against the headboard to help my breathing. he gets in on his side and sits up like i am while grabbing my hands and rubbing his thumb on the back of them. 

after he helps me calm down i decide to speak up "i-i'm sorry f-for walking in he-here without ask-asking" he looks at with soft eyes. "liv you are not bothering me and there's no need to apologize. you can always come here" i smiled at him. "is it okay if i sleep here with you?" i ask in a whisper. he makes his cute thinking face "of course" he replies with a big grin. i settle myself in the bed as he turns off the lamp and lays down. after a few seconds of staring at him he turns to look at me "what?" he asks with a laugh. i make a pouty face and give him the puppy dog eyes "huggy" i say as i open my arms. he laughs and then puts his arms around my waist and i rest my head on his chest and snuggle closer to him. "goodnight livi, i've got you" he says the last part in a very low whisper but i heard. i let out a laugh "night joshy, and thank you" i reply. i felt his grip on my tighten and he scoots a little closer to me. i look up to see him red as a tomato " are you blushing?" i say with a smile "no" he replies as he buries his face in my hair. i laugh and reach up to kiss him and then return my head back to the top of his chest. and that's how we fell asleep.

a/n sorry this is really bad the ending was super rushed because i know i left it on a cliffhanger since the last chapter was so confusing but the next one will be better. let me know your suggestions for the next chapter. stay safe!