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Chap:21

After one year;

"Yohoo!

" Brian was running around with a smile on his face

I chuckled looking at Brian, who was running behind Joe.

"He is so happy. I haven't seen him so happy ever before." Ashley said, looking at them playing around.

I nodded my head with a proud smile on my face.

Through the last year, my only goal was to bond with Brian and make him confident so that no one can mess with him. After a while, i moved back to my house which Anthony gifted me. Everything was untouched. I felt a home feeling when i entered in it. Brian really liked the house too. I had to hire staff to look after the house and Brian. Brian was always so afraid of me leaving him that whenever i used to go out for work or anything, he used to throw a fit. I had to work hard on creating our trust and develop a proper mother and child bond. But in the end my hard work pay off. He was now independent and instead tells me to take care of myself.

"When are you going to celebrate his 9th birthday?" She asked, putting her hands in her long brown coat.

"When we arrive in New Zealand. I have talked to Do-yun, he said he will take care of everything. I want to surprise Brian when we reach there." I said, with a big smile on my face. I couldn't hide my excitement.

"That's really good. I am proud of you. You are such a good mother." She said, giving me a side hug.

Ashley, Asher,Do-yun, his family and my family, we decided to go for a trip. We all had a long tiring year and kids winter vacation also started so we thought it's the best time for the trip. Do-yun was living in New Zealand as his wife belongs from there, so they went there for a trip. When Do-yun got to know that we are planning for a trip, he insisted we come here and together we will have fun. Do-yun and Asher knew each other back then so they all took care of the things and the next two weeks we are here in airport waiting for our flight for New Zealand.

I remember Seo-joon and Sirius members from time to time. I smile when i remember the time we had spend together. The smiles, jokes, tease and tears we shared together, all gone in one sway. Sometimes, when I am really missing them, i see their pictures and feel a little better. I didn't had the energy nor interest in activating my accounts. I don't want to see hate messages or tweets anymore. Neither i have time for that. I saw their posters and news on Tv that they were coming here to release their new album. I was so happy to hear that and wished i could support them. I sometimes have this thought, do they even think about me or worried about me?.

How do i know. When i am not even in contact with them.

When i moved here, after six months, i received an email from Elxir. But i didn't open it and it's still unread. I was done with Elixir,not with Sirius. I still remember that day, every event was printed into my memory. After i came here, i even had a dream about Seo-joon. He was desperately looking for me and i was standing right before him but he couldn't see. Like i was invisible to his eyes.

I couldn't sleep the other night and kept thinking about him. I remember the nights we used to sit in the balcony and talk about life. He used to tell me the hurdles he faced during his career and how he handled it. He never once gave up and kept going. He told me how he made himself strong and independent. He used to give me tips to how to be a better and strong person. He had changed me a lot. He showed me what life is. He made me realize if i need to love anyone, first i need to love myself and my flaws. He made me strong and a better version of myself and for that i was forever grateful.

"You said you have to tell us something. What is it?" Asher asked, handing me a bag of chips.

"Oh yeah. I totally forgot about that." I said, looked back at kids.