★perfect - PAYTON MOORMEIER★

𝚒'𝚕𝚕 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛//𝟷𝟺

~𝚓𝚞𝚕𝚎𝚜 𝚙𝚘𝚟~
it's officially the final day of playlist live. that means i'm separated from the love of my life. it's a 3 hour time difference between me and payton which is rough, but we can handle it. i'll finally get time with just jaden until i see payton next.
today is just a break day where we all get to hang out and stuff like that. i was already dressed and ready so i went downstairs only to see my ex bestfriend, jackson felt. we were bestfriends, he moved, we stopped talking. it turns out, he's paytons bestfriend. that hit me pretty hard. i do miss jackson, but idk if it'll ever be the way it used to be. our flight was in 2 hours, so i decided to turn around, go back upstairs, and pack.  
     i honestly wanted to be alone. the only people i would want to be with is either cynthia or jaden. they understand me the most. i felt like i wanted to cry for no reason so i packed quickly. i finished packing and sat in the corner of the room while i cried, i wasn't even sad. i mean i don't think at least. i just cried, and cried, and cried, and cried for what felt like forever. then there was a knock on my door. i didn't even care what i looked like at this point i opened the door to see chase.
"1. payton is looking everywhere for you 2. wtf happened" chase said
"1. i don't want to be near anyone 2. i'll tell you come over here." i said closing the door once he walked in. he followed me to my little corner that i just sobbed in for almost an hour. i sat down and held my knees to my chest.
"i'm such a happy person in general, but i have the urge to cry. i feel sad. i don't feel happy. maybe i'm acting? idk. it's really weird and it's kind of...scary?" i said to chase.
"i know exactly how you feel." he responded.
"you- you do?"
"yes jules. it's that weird feeling in your chest that you're sad and upset, but you don't want to be. you're scared of what other people would say, right?" chase said.
"yeah. that's exactly it." i said
"i'm always here for you when you aren't there for yourself. always. okay?" chase said calmly.
"thank you."
"of course. wanna talk to payton? he's really worried about you.." chase asked me
"not- not right now."
"alright well i'm gonna go now okay?"
"okay bye chase
"bye"
and with that, he left.
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does she have depression? hmmmm - sylviaaaaa