*trigger warning* There is no Suicide in this book, however there is discussion of natural death, and if that is triggering to you, please be warned, or click off.
Thank you, and sorry for confusion or triggers.
Dear Diary,
In life, things come up that can't be expected. I'm no stranger to complications, but I never expected it all to end so soon. When we found out treatment wasn't an option we knew I wouldn't have very long left. I never realized how short my time really would be so short. I don't know what comes next. I don't know where I'm going next. My mother told me to keep a journal for when.... I'd rather not spend this time in anguish. I wish I had more mobility. I would run for the last time, roll down hills, and see the world. Things have slowed greatly and I have a few lonely moments left.
How do you analyze a life. The fights? The lies? The fear? I won't spend my last days like that. I won't go in fear. I'll go in joy. I'll spend my days awake not asleep.
I'll miss the sun, and the stars. I'll miss the snow and the rain. I'll miss the bitter cold, and suffocating heat. Love and sorrow. Sadness and joy. Pain and healing. A life is built on taking the good with the bad. I wish to say I've lived a good life. I want to know it's not over. I want to know there's more. Truth be told I'm at a moment of faithlessness. I won't say goodbye. I'll see them again.
I'll watch over them.
My affairs should be as orderly as ever, before I end my final entry I want to end the suffering of others. Tell Jonah I forgive him. Tell him I wasn't angry. There is no worse fate than living in the pain of loss forever. I hope he can move on. Though we fought before I want this to be our goodbye. This is our ending. Not the tear or pain. A respect and understanding at our last moment. Our words before we're not our last. These are our last. No pain only joy. Our goodbye is as free as our time together. That's how I want it.
Goodbye to everyone who touched my life, who gave me joy. I hope I could have the privilege of giving you some sense of joy back. Im sorry to everyone I might have hurt, and to anyone who may have hurt me, I forgive you.
Finally,
Sincerely,
Your True Friend,
Benny.
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