The Creator's diary

Reincarnation

Where is this place?

It was neither dark nor light.

There was nothing.

There was me and my consciousness.

I had no body.

Is this the land of death?

Will i go to heaven or hell?

Well i doubt i will go to heaven,  i did curse at God in my last moment.
I think i will probably be punish after that.

An unknown amount of time has past.
This patches of nothingness was neither cold nor warm,  it was strange although i was alone,  i did not feel lonely.

And in this depths of nothingness a faint light started to appear in front of me.

And in that light was a blurry outline of a familiar book

I had no hands but i tried to reach out, i want that book.

It approach me as i was thinking that i envelop the book with my consciousness i press it against my non existent chest

A huge wave of sadness and loneliness envelop me

With a thought i turn the first page of the book,

On the first page the name of the owner of the book was written 'Alfie Blanks'

It was my name.

I hold the book tightly with this i can finally disappear in to the void.

I held on to book tightly in the depths of my consciousness as if it was fusing with my consciousness.

Then i slowly faded. Return to nothingness. Eternal sleep.

The end.

Or so i thought but after an unknown amount of time

A huge pain assaulted me.

'Wait pain? Nevermind pain receptors,  i don't even have a body how is this even possible, wait...  A body? '

I could feel it,  it was faint but i could feel it hands, legs and a body...  Skin and air

I tried speaking out but the only words that went out of my mouth were-

"Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh"

I open my eyes, i haven't saw light at all for the longest time.

The first thing i saw was a beautiful women so beautiful that it puts the idols in TV to absolute shame not only that she was huge,

I could feel her hands warped around me as if she was holding a baby.

'Wait a baby?... Could it be?   I've been reincarnated? '

I quickly look around to confirm my doubts and sure enough i was reincarnated.

Tiny hands with tiny legs.

The beautiful lady shove something inside my  mouth,  it was her breast.

My teenager mind was totally embarrass but i did not resist,  it was like my instinct as a baby told me  not to resist.

And as shy as i was i keep sucking on it.

In a long time of what feels like a century i spend in the void....

I felt it for the second time in my existence.
The warm hands of a mother.
The  warm and kind motherly love.
I feel at ease.
Like nothing in this world no longer bothers me.

Even if the entire world went against me,  i would be fine,  as long as I'm here.

I was wrong.

This was not a punishment.

This was forgiveness.