Feelings To Fight For ((Sequel to Unknown Feelings))

* Part 01 *

*Rye's POV*

Heartbroken; suffering from overwhelming distress; very upset

I, Ryan Beaumont, am heartbroken.

    It was the early hours of Monday, June 3rd, and I laid in bed staring at the ceiling. Today is going to be one of the craziest days of my life. 2 years ago today I realized I love Andy and promised myself I'd do anything to fight for him and make him mine.

Well, now here we are, exactly two years later. It's 3 am and I'm laying in bed, next to a sleeping Andy, as I stare at the ceiling tears slowly trickling down my cheeks.

In 4 hours, Andy will be getting up and start getting himself ready for his wedding, and I'll do the same. I'll help Andy looks like the best groom ever, and then I'll put on my suit and be the greatest best man ever. Yep, that's right. It's not mine and Andy's wedding, it's his and Jordan's. Maybe I didn't fight hard enough for Andy, or maybe it was just too late, but sadly Andy isn't mine and at 7 pm tonight, he will officially never be mine, but someone else's.

I rolled over in the bed so that I was lying on my side looking over at Andy. I admired his shiny blonde hair, his pale skin, his plump pink lips, every little detail about him, I took in.

I'm really gonna miss nights like these. But I should look on the bright side. Andy's wedding will be the first time that Andy, Brook, Jack, Sonny, and I are all together. After about two weeks of me telling Andy how I feel, the band split and we all haven't been together since. You might be asking why the band split up but if you really think about it, you could probably guess. Nope, you didn't guess? Then here, I'll tell you. After Andy and I had our little moment, I guess you can call it, things were off in the band and anybody with eyes noticed it and pointed it out. So we all decided it was time for RoadTrip to come to an end. After that, everyone went their separate ways. We've all met up and saw each other but not as all five of us. The five of us as a group haven't been together in two years almost. I mean hey, maybe one good thing will come out of Andy's wedding, a RoadTrip reunion.

    A couple of hours later everyone was ready for the wedding. I had finally come to accept it, or I mean, I think I have. Andy and I walked out of the rented hotel room and got into my car. The drive to the venue was an hour or so away and I was nowhere near ready for an hour of awkward silence between Andy and I. So I did what any person would do. I tried to start small talk.

Rye:So you excited?

Andy:Yeah, and nervous. Is it bad to be nervous?

It took everything in me to fake a believable laugh but it must've sounded real because Andy didn't question it.

Rye:Don't be. You love Jordan and he loves you. You guys are a forever thing.

Andy smiled and placed his hand on my knee. Interactions like that hadn't happened between us in months. Almost a year. Those actions which used to be so common, something done given not much thought, had become foreign. I sighed and glanced over at Andy who was staring out the window. Why am I just letting this happen? Why am I just letting the love of my life just marry some stupid idiot. Literally nobody on this planet could ever love Andy more than I do. I quickly snapped out of thought hearing Andy's angelic voice.

Andy:Hey Rye?
Rye:Um, yeah?

Andy:I just wanted to say, I'm glad you don't have feelings for me anymore and that we've moved past that. I'm glad you're still my best friend and we stuck together through all of this.

I slightly laughed and bit my lower lip forgetting to respond.

Andy:Ryan?

Rye;Oh yeah, sorry, me too.

Andy:Are you okay? You seem, I don't know, kinda off.

I smiled small glancing in his direction before pulling up to a stop light and clearing my throat.

Rye:Yeah, I'm good. Just didn't sleep a ton last night. I was doing some last minute thing for Jack.

Andy:For Jack?

    He looked at me super confused and I just chuckled softly.

Rye:Yes, Jack. He asked me to pick something up from the store for him.
Andy:And he can't just do that after the wedding?
Rye:He's proposing to Brook after the wedding.

Andy:No way! Aww, that's adorable. How's your whole dating thing going?    I just smiled and  then looked down biting my lip. I'm obviously not going to tell him I still love him on the day of his wedding. That's just not something you do to someone. After forgetting to respond again, Andy just fell silent and didn't respond to any of my remarks or questions. I knew he was tired of me being so, zoned out, and not there.

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hehe I'm back bitches!!

Anyways yeah :))

~ brea <3