Feelings To Fight For ((Sequel to Unknown Feelings))

* Part 08 *

*Andy's POV*

Lost;(of time or an opportunity) not used advantageously; wasted.
I, Andrew Fowler, am lost.

    And once again, right before my eyes, I lost Rye and he wasn't even mine. Not only did I lose Rye. but I lost Jordan. I can't believe he waited until the moment we were about to do our vows to say that, publically call me out, humiliate me in front of everyone.  Even if he was right, which he obviously was, he didn't have to wait till the very last second to say it like he did.

    After a few hours of sitting in my hotel room, screaming and crying. I finally came to my senses and called Rye. After six times of me calling Rye very aggressively answered causing me to cry more and instantly hang up. This is it. This is what it truly means to be alone. To have nobody.

    The next morning, I woke up, eyes red and puffy, cheeks stained with tears all from the night before, and I did the only thing I feel like I'm good at. I wrote music.

I find it funny, the way you'd stayed by my side and told me how stupid guys are.
I find it funny that you warned me about people who will hurt me one day.
I find it funny that you were the one that said you'd never leave, and now you're gone.
I find it funny that you said you'd always make time for me, but suddenly, you just can't.
I find it funny that you were the one that said you wanted to stay good friends, but I see no effort.
I find it funny that you were someone's shoulder I cried on and you'd said you would never hurt me, but now I'm having to find someone else's shoulder because of you.
I find it funny that I actually trusted you and believed in you.
I find it funny that I told myself you were different and that you'd understand.
I find it funny how you said you wouldn't leave me and you'd stick by my side but now, you're nowhere to be found.
I find it funny that I fell in love with you, the real you, but now, that you isn't anywhere to be found.
I find it funny that I really believed we'd work.
I find it funny that I told myself that everything would be okay.
I find it funny that all the lies I told myself, of things that wouldn't happen, they're happening.
I find it funny that at one point in time I called you my best friend.
I find it funny how you said you'd always be there to comfort me, but now, because of you, I need to be comforted.
I find it funny that you think this isn't important and doesn't matter.
But what's the funniest thing of all, is that even after everything you've said and done, I still love you.

By the end of writing and softly singing the song, my voice was shaky and weak, new tears were flowing all down my cheeks just like last night.

    I'm not mad at Rye though, just slightly disappointed. Like, really Ryan? A man you just met? When it comes to Jordan, for him, I am a bit more than slightly ticked off, and disappointed. Maybe he just wasn't in love with me either. Maybe he just really meant what he said at the altar. God, I'd give up so much just to know what's going on inside his head.

*Jordan's POV*

Courage;the ability to do something that frightens one.
I, Jordan Morris, have courage.

    I know, I know, I'm a jerk, but seriously, are we gonna go off on me when he is going to marry and be in love with another guy? All I did was save myself from tons of pain everyone knows I would have had to go through. As if two years of this crap wasn't enough. I was not, absolutely not, going to marry someone who doesn't want me. With someone who's in love with someone else at that. All I know is I'm not in the wrong and that Andy's little 'oh I'm the victim pitty me' is bullcrap. To think, I love someone like that.