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Jungkook isn't actually in deep sleep. Yes, he's just pretending to sleep in. He's been doing that for a long time he doesn't even know how long.

Taehyung is still in his room, he assumed. He can still hear some slight tapping of a shoe on the floor. Well not until he heard it tap loudly. As if he jumped or something.

He heard a silent squeal and the closing of the door. He popped an eye open and scan the room. Taehyung had went out.

He got up and rubbed his eyes. Pretending to be asleep is really a hard work.

He leaned at the headboard and just sat there in his bed staring into space.

He doesn't know why he suddenly don't want to go to the ball.

"I should have said no when he asked me." he said to himself recalling the day Taehyung asked him if he's going to their school's christmas ball.

It was in October when it was announced. He doesn't have plans on going. It isn't his thing after all. He thought of just staying at his apartment and watch ghibli movies or just play some video games.

His decision was already been made even before Taehyung asked him.

He was supposed to say no.

He doesn't know why he suddenly said the exact same opposite of it.

He still remember what Taehyung had said to him that he considered going.

"I don't want to got too honestly." Jungkook look at him amused.

"Stop lying. I know you've been waiting for this." Taehyung punch his shoulders after he said that.

"Shut up! But seriously, I really don't. Maybe because I thought it was going to be a grad ball or something. I'm not expecting them to schedule it on december."

"Why do you want to go to this ball so badly though?" Jungkook is genuinely curious why Taehyung can't shut up about this ball. He also remembered him wishing it to be on their last day on college.

"Well you see, now I'm not that excited to go because they put it on december. but I'm still going it's just that..." Taehyung trailed off. It's like he has something that didn't go well. He looked a bit upset.

"That?" Jungkook sent him a knowing glance. His eyes speaks for him, telling him to go on.

"Well, I made a promise to myself that I'm making a move to someone I like on the ball. It sounds sooo cliche but you know, it's the only thing I can think of. The only opportunity I have. I want it to be on the last day of college so if things won't go well, I can just move on after. It's the end of college after all. It won't be that hard if ever. You see I've been liking this someone since freshman year, i just want to do something about it before we graduate." Jungkook can't help but admire Taehyung for the nth time.

He just look at him, he doesn't really know what to say. He's actually surprised Taehyung thought of doing something like that. Something that requires a lot of courage.

Something he can't do so he doesn't know what to say.

He's actually just have the same case as him.

Well, the difference is, he liked this someone since sophomore year and he doesn't have any plans on telling him. He doesn't want to. They've been close since the start of their senior year and he doesn't want it to change.

He can only resort on teasing him.

What more he can do? When that someone doesn't look like he can like someone like him?

He remembered thinking those words Taehyung said to him that day for a long time.

It lingers in him. He even had some pep talks with himself about it. Until he came up with a conclusion. He told Taehyung he's going.

Maybe he's not courageous as him but he can try.

He thought he can just try. It won't hurt.

But thinking about it again, maybe he can't.

He doesn't really have plans on telling him in the first place. So maybe he can stop trying before he can start.

But he doesn't want to not do anything too.

He grab some strands of his hair and pulled it repeatedly.

"Think straight for once even if you're not." He knows he looks like some crazy ass guy right now but he can't care less. He's alone in his room too so it's okay.

It's okay to be a mess.

After messing his hair he's back on staring into space.

I really hate it when the feelings are too strong now you can't do anything about it but to follow what it says.

He snapped out of his thoughts when he heard Taehyung screamed.

"JIMIN YOU'RE FINALLY HERE!"

What the actual fuck now?

He blinked several times, not believing what he had heard Taehyung said outside. He's about to shrugged it off and go back to sleeping when he heard someone spoke. Definitely not Taehyung.

"I'm sorry it took more than two hours. Anyways, you're styling up your hair now. You look good! Wait you dyed your hair?"

Fucking hell.