Lost (Troye Sivan)

19. The Truth

Troye's POV
I went back to home and cried. "I'm not Jacob." "Jacob is not my name." These sentences just wouldn't leave my mind. Why did so many things happened to me suddenly. There's no way that he isn't Jacob. My tears made my bed really wet, seeing the large amount of my tears, it made me cried harder.
Few moments later, Jacob sent a long passage to me.
"I don't know how you feel right now. I'm not gonna apologize for slamming the door because you're so annoying and think it's funny. Anyway, I will tell you the whole thing now. I'm NOT Jacob. My name is Noah. To be honest, I'm a fanboy of you. I knew you since 2017 and I fell in love with you, your amazing voice and handsome appearance is killing me and I really wanted to see you. I stalked you and found your home address, your manager's home address. I also searched you on internet every day, and i found some of your private information, for example, people said when you're a kid you you separated with a friend called Jacob because of a Cruise Trip accident. I went to do plastic surgery so that I could look like that 'Jacob Bixenman'. I also changed my name. You know what? The real Jacob was dead already. I pretended to be that Jacob because I want to meet you, fall in love with you and live with you forever. But, I found out what I do is too over. I need to stop now. You can call the police to arrest me because of my stalking and hacking actions. And, that's it. End of story."
I read from the beginning to the end. I cried. But this time, it's the tears of fear. I was so scared. This whole thing is scary, he's a fanboy, he stalked me, he did plastic surgery, and lied to me so he could date with me... I can't reply him, I don't know what to reply. "You can call the police to arrest me", no, Jacob, I won't. Now although I know the truth, I still couldn't change the fact that I'm in love with you.

I don't know what to do.

If the real Jacob is dead, then I guess I should go to heaven with him.