Tears and Fears

I Didn't Mean To Say It

I love you
everything about you
starting from your laugh to the way your hair moves in the wind
you're all I could dream of
millions of other things to think about, but you're always on my brain

you intoxicate me
you're my gateway drug
my whole existence

do I mean the same to you
do you shoot me up like heroin
think about me like song lyrics
am I all you could dream of

do I spend countless hours in your brain that I should start paying rent
no?

it's one way love
I eat you up like a birthday cake
you tear me down like a dead tree
three words to talk about each other
a simple sentence of different meaning

I love you

but that isn't yours

yours is more harsh
more evil than the monster in my closet
or the voices in my head
I hate you

said with such force
such passion it knocks me off my feet
blows me away like a tornado

I won't ever stop loving you

like you won't stop hating me