The Boy Who Stood Back Up

THE PARTY

(Apologies for the mistakes please let me know and yeah enjoy the part.)

After reading her text I realized what an idiot I was. I forgot to ask her was she new around here or why did she decide to join school at that time of the year or how many siblings she has and other blah blah blah.

Me: I'm so sorry, what an idiot I am. So did you always live in Pennsylvania or just moved here?

June : 🤣🤣😂

I was really confused why did she send me a laughing emoji.

JUNE: I wasn't talking about that but since you've asked about it........ I moved to Pennsylvania just a month ago.

Me: Oh that's nice. So what was the one thing that you were going to say?

JUNE : you really don't remember. I guess yeh you didn't even look at me when we bumped into each other and you just went like a bullet train.
Then my mind clicked, she was the girl who I bumped into the hallway.

Me : I'm sorry for bumping into you and also forgetting that it was you.
JUNE : It's okay, no problemo actually I was also not paying attention also. Couldn't find the class lmao 😂

Me : 😂, No I wasn't also not paying just was walking looking to the ground.

JUNE : So you always sit alone in the back?

Me: No, actually I sit with Charlie he was sick. So he couldn't. You're the only one after him who I've sat with since the start of the year.

JUNE : Yeah I don't know him he must be the only human in the class.

Me: na there are couple of good fellas like Mark, Jack, Emma and some other too. But they can be an asshole sometimes otherwise they're great.

JUNE : And Jay?
ME : Jay, well you should probably answer that question. Lol
JUNE : Okay let me see,...... According to me he's a big douche😂.
Me: Congratulations you got it alrighty. XD

JUNE :😂😂 Hey listen I gotta go. Probably see you tomorrow.
Me : Yeah sure, see you tomorrow. Take care.
JUNE : You too.

I closed my phone and sat on my study table and started doing all the assignments. As I was working I received a text message from Charlie.
Charlie : So, who's the new girl in class? She seems pretty badass.
Me : How did you know? And Also how are you feeling now?
Charlie : Yeah feeling much better. Well saw it on Emma's Instagram story. Jay was like completely embarrassed. What's her name?
Me : June. Ik right, Like Jay the biggest douche of the school getting shushed by a new girl lol. He didn't even look at her after it the whole day.
Charlie : Lmfao. Fuck why did I miss that. I would literally pay to see that in person 😂.
Me: Yeah, you really missed a great moment.
Charlie : 😂😂See you tomorrow.
July : Yeah see you tomorrow.
I put my phone away and continuing my assignment. But the only thing that was in my head was Jay getting his ass whooped by a girl. I completed my assignment around 8 pm taking a few breaks here and there. So I stood infront of the mirror and started doing my therapies for my stutter. I've doing all those therapies for a very long time but I got nothing to but disappointment from them. And every time I became more and more depressed, that I'll have to live with this shitty disability.

"What am I doing, nothing will ever happen to me. It won't get fixed by just speaking infront of the damm mirror. You always be a boy who needs others to stand up for him. You'll always be a coward." I said it to myself, as my eyes teared up. Out of frustration I punched the wall many times. Until my knuckles went red. I dragged myself along with the wall and sat down on the floor, with my legs straightened out and hands on the cold wooden floor. I just sat their with tears in my eyes taking deep breathes. I tried remembering the goods things that happened to me. I tried remembering today's incident. But I was too emotional at the that moment that the incident that made me laugh before is now making me sad.