What do you do when life has kicked you down one too many times?
You fight and you fight like hell.
Blair had fought all her life, not having anyone to turn to that was until she found she had a half brother living in Chicago.
After reaching out t...
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"Well I'm stuck in this fucking rut, waiting on a second-hand pick-me-up, and I'm over getting older. If I could just find the time, then I would never let another day go by. I'm over getting old. Maybe it's not my weekend but it's gonna be my year. And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere, and this is my reaction to everything I fear 'cause I've been going crazy, I don't wanna waste another minute here" I sung at the top of my lungs as I cooked dinner.
My mind was running into overdrive it was coming up to the year anniversary of my parents death. And I think that's why the nightmares were back.
"How she been Rox?" I head Kevin ask.
"She's been like this all afternoon, good job I don't mind the music" she chuckled. "Good job you brought the unit as she's done what she does and cooked enough to feed an army"
"Hey bear" Kevin whispered placing his hand on my shoulder. "You need to stop cooking"
I was in my own world so didn't pay attention to what he was saying until he put both hands on my shoulder stopping me from moving.
"Bear stop cooking" he whispered snapping me out of my world.
"Oh shit" I laughed looking at the counter and food I had cooked. "Urm you guys hungry"
Adam walked over to me with the look I hated that sympathetic look.
"Blair I am"
"Dont" I hissed cutting him off "I don't need your sympathy ok I just don't. Look I know Kevin told you about what happened but I don't need you looking at me like that ok"
"Yo B retract the claws" roxi said shooting me a look.
"No I need to say this" I snapped "I just want to live my life"
"Right you" she said pushing me "outside now"
"Why did you drag me out here" I growled.
"Because the poor boy was only coming up to you to say sorry for your loss" she whispered.
"Rox I know what he was doing and I definitely don't need sympathy from someone I hate" I stated.
"You have been at each other's throats now for what a year when you going to realise it's stupid" She said lighting my cigarette "what do you even hate about him"
"We are not going down this road again" I sighed walking off.
"Yes, yes we are. So what do you hate about him"
"Fine just everything about him, his cocky jumped up attitude, how he treats the people he dated, that fucking grin he does to try and get his own way and the way he breathes" I shouted. "Happy"
"Getting there but we deffo need to get you laid" she smirked.
"Seriously I swear sex is all you think about"
"Most of the time" she smirked "one thing I know you won't disagree on he is fucking hot"
"No he isn't" I rolled my eyes.
"You are such a liar"
———
The rest of the night I was quite, mulling things over in my head.
I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and I hated it.
"So I've got a question" Kim asked "why do you call her bear"
"Because she may look all cute and all but trust me she can be feisty" he laughed "trust me I've been on the receiving end"
"Hey" I moaned.
After a couple more hours of every chatting I was getting a bit bored, roxi had gone home and was kinda a bit left out of the conversation.
"I'm gonna call it a night" I smiled at Kev. "I'm kinda tired"
"Night bear" he smiled back shooting me a look that said if I had a nightmare let him know.
———
"Hey, hey it's only me calm down" I heard Kevin's voice whisper in my ear as he gently rocked my body. "It's only me"
"Huh" I said in a daze.
"You had a nightmare but I couldn't wake you" he whispered still rocking me "ive just been holding you for the past half and hour trying to calm you"
"Sorry" I mumbled still half asleep "I didn't even know I was having one"
"Don't be sorry, but I think you need to see someone about everything" he said.
"Like a therapist?" I asked.
"Yeah I think it will help"
"Will think about it" I huffed I was too tired to argue. "Will you stay in here until I fall back asleep"
"You know I will" he whispered kissing my head before I snuggled back down under my covers.
The only light was the soft glow of his phone.
———
Slowly stirring I let my eyes adjust to the light in the room.
Turning over I saw Kevin fast asleep sat up at the top of my bed with his phone still in his hand.
Letting him sleep I rolled out of bed pulling my fluffy dressing gown around me, I wandered into the living room to see a tooled Adam stood cooking breakfast.
Rolling my eyes I grabbed my smokes and headed outside.
I was enjoying the peace until Adam came and stood next to me.
"Didn't know you smoked?" I said inhaling.
"Lot of things you don't know about me Blair" he shrugged.
