HE'S ONLY MINE!(SHIZAYA STORY)

Come to my school

Shizue p.o.v

"hey, what your name?" I asked the beautiful and angel-ish kid that was standing in front of me "Izaya" he told me in a cute voice "I'm Shizue, nice to meet you" I told him with my best smile "yeah" he said with red face "want to be friends?" I asked him but he looked at me like I was alien or something "are you really want to be friends with a monster like me? he asked almost crying "monster? who?" I asked him and he looked very surprised "my mama always told me that I'm a monster who shouldn't have born" It took me by surprise "why would she say something like that to her son?" I asked " I don't know but she told me that I ruined everything that she ever had when I was born" he told me while he looked down so I wouldn't see him crying buy I could hear it in his voice "why your father won't do anything about that?" I asked him in a very serious voice "my papa is always at work but when he is home he got drunk and hit me" he told me. "ne, from now on, I'll be the one to take care of you, I'll make sure you're always happy ok? so you don't have to worry at all, just come to me every time you're sad and I'll make you happy" I told him that while taking his hands in mine and looked at him in his eyes "ok" he told with a big smile while his tears steaming down his face. after that we always were together and I enjoyed every minuets of it, but then, one year and a half after our first meeting, his parents abandoned him and put him in an orphanage, we met a few times after that but after he stopped coming I asked some adult and she said that he got adopted and his new dad took him, I was happy for him but in the same time I was a little bit sad that I won't see him anymore, I went there a few more times to see maybe he's there waiting for me but...he didn't come anymore. I never saw him again. I swore that if I'll see him one more time I won't let him go again.

that was a six years ago, and right now he's here, in my own bad, lying down.

I couldn't believe it, the love of my life for a eight years was lying down in front of me in my bed so defenseless... is it suppose to be a test? if it so, I think I'ma gonna fail in huge. I lowered my head and almost put our lips together but than he stated to move, making me jump up quickly and he opened his eyes "w-where am I?" he ask in a little frighten voice "you're at my place Izaya" I told him but as I said his name he flinched "h-how do you know my name?" he asked as he started to cover his body with the blanket "you ain't recognize me?" he just shake his head "my name is Shizue Heiwajima" his eyes widen as I said my name "S-Shizu-chan?" I nod my head, he suddenly get up and wrapped his hands around me as he started crying "Shizu-chan, Shizu-chan, Shizu-chan" he repited my name as if making sure I'm real "I'm here Izaya" I told him as I hug him in return "I'm here" I whispered to his ear and I saw his ear getting deep red, I chuckle and pull him away so I could look at him in his eyes " I missed you so much Shizu-chan" he say with his eyes close, tears streaming down his face and a huge smile "me too Izaya" I missed him so much, now that I have him I'm not letting him leave ever again!

He looked so cute, I remember that he was taller than me when we were younger but now I'm taller than him by a 10 cm, it kind of making me wanna laugh. but than I remembered something and turned serious "Izaya, who was the that person earlier?" he suddenly flinched at the question "N-no one special" he obviously lied "Izaya don't lie to me" "..." "?" "it was my father" "WHAT??? I THOGHT HE ABANDONED YOU" I yelled "no, not him. my adoptive one" "why would he adopted you if all he did was to abuse you?" I asked him, I really didn't understand that "he told me that I looked like his ex-wife so I can consider as their child but deep down I knew he lied, he missed her-no, he was obssed with her, he couldn't bear the thought she left him for someone else. he sometimes treat me like I was her, he talk to me about their past, he called me in her name. it was unhealthy love." I was shocked by the things I just heard. I was angry. angry at that bastard for what he did. angry at his biological parents for abused him, for abandoned him. but most of all, I was angry at myself. for not being there for him all these times when he needed me the most. i gritted my teeth "Shizu-chan?" he call me in such a sweet voice even tho' I don't deserve it. "ne Izaya, school start tomorrow, who won't you come to my school?" I asked him really exciting about this idea "sorry Shizu-chan but I already sign in for school in this year, I don't think i have enough money to drop out and started in another school...sorry" he clearly sound sad and to be honest i was upset too but i understood him. " its fine Izaya, don't be sad or ill be sad too" i told him. 'i don't like to see him sad, it make me sad. i promised him that I'll be there for him no matter what if he'll just-' "-chan? shizu-chan? are you ok? you just staring at me..." he asked while he blushed. it took me a second to understand what he meant but than realized i was staring at him and than i just blushed too. there was a minuet of embarrassing silence. "Shizu-chan, i think its better if I'll just go" he say and tried to get up but the second i heard that i felt like i was goona lose him again, that if I'll let him go now i wont see him ever again. i was so deep in thought that i didn't realized that i was sitting on the top of him on the bad with his arms above his head, the second i realized what i just did, i let his arms go and he sat up with his face all red,he looked at me for a moment but than got up and run out of my house. i sat there in silence for a few minuets. i realized what i did to him or rather what i was about to do to him. i didn't know how to deal with my feelings toward Izaya, i love him. i really do, with all my heart. but i don't know how he feel about me...*sigh* what am i gonna do now?