Snowed In

Chapter 13

A month had gone by in a blur and so much has happened.  I had gotten my mom in a facility and we weren't allowed to her for a little while. My dad wasn't speaking to me at all. He disowned me and my other siblings. My siblings also blamed me for that and cut off contact. In a way I didn't care. I grew apart from them anyway. If they really cared about mom they would have helped me do the right thing.

Janine was there through it all. Every day I thought of Logan and everything he awoken in me and how much I wanted him warming my bed. I thought constantly of what other woman he was taking into his bed to replace me. Somehow every time I thought about it, I felt sick.

It has been a couple days since I felt sick to the stomach and certain smells always upset me. Janine pointed out that I may be pregnant but I didn't want to acknowledge it. It couldn't be happening.  Just another reminder or something I couldn't have but at the same time it excited me. It also gave me another excuse to go see him.

Janine and I decided it'll best that I kept the baby and tell him while I was showing so it'll make it more real.

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I was four months pregnant and craving alot of foods I never ate. My baby ate pickles. Ew. Tomorrow was the day I was going to confront Logan. Janine called him and told him I'd be dropping by just to say hi on my way to visit someone. He said okay and hung up. Typical Logan. I went to bed that night feeling hopeful about the next day and all the possibilities at the same time....feeling dread.

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I've been driving for a couple hours and I almost there. Nervously I had bag of chocolate I was still allowed to eat,chewing on. I pulled up by the shed and called his number. He didn't answer. But I waited.
I wore a flowy dress so he wouldn't see the baby bump yet. 

A knock sounded on my window and I jumped and froze. There he was. Tall, and even more handsome than I remember. His curly hair was cut and he was shaved and he looked so yummy.
I bit my lip and looked down. I collected my things and stepped out the car. Janine made me wear lace up sandals and a red summer dress. And bright red lipstick.  His eyes dropped to my lips and he cleared his throat and hurriedly looked up to my eyes.

"You look alive."he said ,looking at the ground.

"You too. Can we go up?"

"Ok."

Logan started up the hill and left me. I called out to him and stretched out my hand to signal I needed help. He rolled his eyes and basically dragged me up the rest of the way. I had to becareful not to fall or give away I was pregnant. 
When we reached the house I saw he had cleaned up and the trees were looking a little better from when I last saw them.  Anger took over me as I saw how nonchalant he was being towards me.
The words flew out my mouth without even a thought.

"I'm having your baby asshole."

The keys in his hand dropped and he just starred at the door. He didn't move to open it or retrieve his keys.

"What did you say?"

"I said. You're my baby's daddy Logan. I'm four months pregnant. Look."

I pulled the dresser closer to me and he looked around and saw the bump.

"Fuck!"