You Choose

Crying out loud

Ed stares at me without saying a word with his flowers in his hand.

-"What are you doing here?" he looks at me with sad eyes.

-"Can... Can we talk?" he said with a lower voice.

-"I have nothing to say to you Ed!" i said while trying to find my apartment key.

-"But I do! Please, just for 5 minutes!" he begged. I was unlocking my door, I took a deep breath and sigh.

-"5 minutes, for those years we've been together."
Sure, because he drove from San Diego to LA for a five minutes talk.

I walk into the apartment and all the memories from that night came back to me. For the last month I've tried to focus on something else just to get rid of those feelings that caused me so much pain. Ed goes to kitchen and light a cigar while I open the fridge to get some beers. I slam the beer in front of him and he nods at me with a small but sad smile.

-"So? You said 5 minutes..." i raised my eyebrow trying to catch his eyes. He looks down, avoiding eye contact. As you wish I said to myself.

-"Those are for you!" he handed me the flowers. It was a beautiful bouquet of tulips, black tulips. At least he reminds what flowers I liked. I sit in front of him leaving the flowers on the table.

-"Blair, I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't do anything but thinking about you!"

-"And how is this my problem? You choose to be this way! By the way, how's Olivia?" I asked almost yelling. He senses the sarcasm and rises his eyes, making faces. His eyes arouses memories as I remembered the last night together on that alley.

-"I don't know, I haven't spoke to her since that night!" I roll my eyes. Of course, he wouldn't be so insane to tell me something else. "Anyway, I want to ask you... Do you still love me Blair?" he takes my hand in his.

-"It doesn't matter Ed! What's done is done. We can't change the past." I said and i take back my hand.

-"But we can change the future!" he said with hope in his eyes.

-"What future Ed? You ruined it the moment you decided to fuck that whore!" I yelled with my tears rolling all over my face. I get up and my beer falls on the floor. He grabs it and comes near me, takes my face in his hands and wipes my tears. I couldn't look at him.

-"Please just give another chance! Let me fix this." he asked while he moved closer as I could feel his breath on my lips. I start crying so loudly and my chest hurts so bad i couldn't breath. He takes me in his arms.

-"Please stop crying... It breaks my heart to see you like that!"

-"Ed... you need to leave!" All I wanted was to be alone.

-"Promise me you will think about it..." he sights. I've shaken my head while I was pushing him to the door.

-"Please go " I howl. I heard the door slams and I fall in the middle of the kitchen with my face in my hands. My whole body was in pain. Why did he came? I went to bed hoping to fall asleep quickly so I didn't have to think about anything.

Next day I couldn't get out of bed. My head was spinning as I cried all night. It was my second day at the university and I already skipped one. I went to the kitchen to make a coffee and I saw the flowers Ed gave to me last night. They were wilted so I throw them in the trash. Who need flowers anyway?

As I enjoying the coffee on the balcony, I hear a knock on the door. I open to see a little guy with a huge bouquet of black tulips. There were so many I barely see the guy behind them. I laughed as I saw him struggle with them.