Trust // KELLIC

Chapter 5

It's a terrifying experience; waking up and having no clue where you are. I felt like I had the biggest hang over in the history of time. My head was throbbing as I opened my eyes and looked at the unfamiliar ceiling. Turning my head to the left I saw a door I didn't recognize. As I turned my head to the right, my vision blurred and I felt dizzy. I groaned and closed my eyes for a moment before opening them, only to see someone lying next to me.

"No, no, no, no," I whispered to myself as bits and pieces of last night formed in my head. I remember talking to Craig...and then I was being brought in here. I couldn't remember much, at least not details anyway. But I knew what happened. I felt different. I felt dirty and used. Reality wasn't setting in yet. My first priority was getting out of here. I sat up slowly and steadily, my head spinning the entire time. What had he drugged me with?

I looked down at myself, devastated to see I had no clothes on. My gaze landed upon my arms where I had bruises around my wrists and a few up my arms. I was drugged, so how could I have put up a fight to get bruises? Unless he likes it rough. I shuddered at the thought. My entire body was aching right now. I literally rolled out of the bed because I barely found the energy to stand. I landed on my clothes and slowly, and awkwardly, put them on. After that I managed to stand up and was about to walk out the room when Craig latched onto my arm and pulled me back onto the bed and got on top of me, pinning my wrists to the bed tightly. Panic rose up in me. I couldn't speak. I wanted to scream for help but nothing came out. Craig looked directly into my eyes with a glare.

"This never happened," his voice was clear and calm, yet terrifying at the same time. All I could do was nod quickly. He glared at me for a moment longer before rolling off of me back onto the bed. I let out the breath I was holding in.

"Out," he ordered. I didn't need to be told twice. I ignored how much my body wanted to shut down and scrambled to my feet, moving as fast as I could, stumbling through his room and out the door. I think it was still early so the place was empty and I'm sure Austin was still asleep. I just wanted to get out of there as quickly as possible, so like a drunken person I made my way out of the bar. I stepped outside and almost straight away dropped to my knees and emptied the contents of my stomach. Fuck, I felt like absolute shit.

Once I was done I got up from the ground, headed over to my car and unlocked it. I got in and started the car, driving off and away from that place which I swore to myself right now I would never visit again, even if Craig didn't work there anymore, I wouldn't go there. I couldn't. Not after what happened. Now that I was alone, reality started to set in. I hadn't sexually been with anyone other than Vic. In a way it felt like I was losing a bit of my innocence.

I choked back tears as my thoughts shifted to Vic and everything else that happened last night. Everything was such a mess right now and I didn't want to think about it, so I focused on driving. It was probably really unsafe of me to drive when my mind was still in such a haze, but I didn't care all too much. So, I drove the rest of the way trying my hardest not to think about anything that happened last night.

When I arrived home, I parked the car out the front of the house and just sat there. What was I going to do? Craig scared the hell out of me, and even if he didn't scare me I don't think I would have told anyone anyway. What good would come of it? People would just look at me differently. I'd be Kellin the rape victim. I shuddered at the thought of what happened last night. I didn't want to think about it anymore.

I breathed in and out deeply and looked at my arms. These bruises would attract so many questions. I didn't want to answer people though. I didn't want anyone to know. I couldn't go in there like this though, so I took out my phone and found Jenna's number. I pressed dial and put the phone to my ear. She picked up instantly.