Trust // KELLIC

Chapter 15

I woke up to find myself in the same position I was in when I fell asleep. The only difference now was that the fire was almost out. It was still dark out though so I mustn't have been asleep for long. I sat up a little and Vic tightened his grip around me. I smiled and relaxed against him.

"Are you awake?" I asked. I got no reply, so he must be asleep. I moved away a little, freeing myself from his arms and turned around. He was still sitting there against the log and it didn't look comfortable at all. "Babe," I said and nudged him a little. He woke up straight away, opening his eyes and looking around quickly in his half asleep state before he looked at me and smiled.

"Hey, you're up. What time is it?" he asked in a croaky voice that I always found so cute. I smiled and took my phone out of my pocket and looked at the screen.

"Two AM," I told him.

"You wanna go in the tent? I put it up for a reason, not just so you could sit there watching me be all manly," he teased and poked my sides.

I chuckled and nodded, standing up and holding my hands out so I could help him up too. Vic picked up the blankets that had been covering us, dusted them off a little and brought them over to the tent with us. I climbed in first, noting that there were a pile of pillows and some other blankets in there. Wow he had really come prepared. I lay down with my head rested against one of the pillows and watched as he came in after me, zipped the tent back up and then lay down next to me. He spread the blankets out over both of us.

"Tonight has been perfect. I really needed it," I said with a smile, although he still had no idea why I needed the time away.

I could see him smile from the dim glow of the fire from outside and then he moved closer to me, wrapping his arm around my waist. I turned towards him, sliding my arm around him and resting my forehead on his. He tilted his face up a little and captured my lips with his. It started off as a slow kiss at first but it gradually got more and more passionate. He slipped his tongue into my mouth and brought his hands up to my face, running his thumb tenderly across my cheek. Sure, his touches were gentle, but this kiss definitely wasn't.

He bit my bottom lip lightly and pulled away a little, but only so he could kiss down my neck. His hands trailed down my chest and he pushed me onto my back, getting on top of me. This was usually the part where I would freak out, right? This time I didn't though. I felt different out here and away from everything, like it was like this was the me and Vic from before everything that happened.

He nipped at my collarbone and I gasped as a little shock wave of pleasure was sent throughout me. He gripped my hips and pulled me up a little while grinding against me and I let out a moan. He bit and sucked at my neck, probably leaving being a love bite, and kept moving his body on top of mine. I could hear him breathing heavily as he kissed back up to my ear.

"You're so perfect and you're all mine," he said before kissing my lips again.

That one sentence made something click in my mind. Sure, maybe at this moment I wasn't exactly scared of him touching me, but there was another feeling going through me: guilt. Was I perfect? No. I wasn't. For so long he had been the only man to touch me but someone else had. That doesn't make me perfect at all, and now I'm not exactly all his. I had been someone else's and that thought was unsettling. I felt guilty because here he was thinking that I was this perfect person who had only ever been with him and I'm not. I could feel tears fill my eyes and I knew I couldn't go on with this right now.

"Wait, stop," I said and pushed him away a little. He looked down at me and I was thankful that it was dark so he wouldn't see my tears.

"What is it? Are you okay?" he asked.