Trust // KELLIC

Chapter 19

Kellin's POV:

This wasn't happening right now. He can't know! He just can't. This is just going to turn out to be a complete mess. I know it'll only be a matter of time before Vic tries to find Craig and probably end up either killing him and getting sent to jail, or getting hurt himself. How did he find out anyway? I hadn't told a soul other than Jenna and the only other person that could have told him was Craig, but would he really be that stupid?

Well however he found out, he did, and now everything I had feared would probably come true. I saw the way he looked at me when he was yelling at me. He hated me and was completely disgusted in me, but then again he didn't know the whole story, but I guess Jenna just told him otherwise he wouldn't be out here right now. He's still going to be disgusted in me though, right? I'm no longer his perfect Kellin that has only been his. He won't love me anymore. Yet here he is holding me as I cried, so maybe there's hope yet.

He pulled me onto his lap and rocked me back and forth as he tried to calm me down. I was just so scared though. I was scared about what would happen next. I hated that the others now knew about it as well, but they were bound to find out eventually. I was just so glad that Vic hadn't abandoned me right now.

"When you're ready I'd like to talk about this," Vic finally spoke. I slowly let go of him and pulled back a little, looking at his concerned face.

"Okay," I said. The truth was out now so I might as well come clean about everything.

"Are you sure? We don't have to right now if you don't want to," he said, but I knew Vic. I knew he really wanted to know. That's the type of person he is, he needs to know things.

"I'm sure. I mean, I've kept quiet for long enough, right?" I said. He frowned at me.

"Yeah, you have," he looked a little mad, but his face soon softened, "Why didn't you tell me?"

I shrugged and looked away from him before getting off his lap and sitting next to him. I couldn't speak about this while being touched.

"I was scared," I said.

"Of what?" he asked. I looked back up at him.

"Lots of things. Craig, mostly. I was afraid he'd come after me if I told. And plus I was...I was scared that you'd hate me," I said. He took my hand and I let him hold it.

"Why would I hate you? You didn't do anything wrong," he said.

"I don't know. I guess I thought you'd blame me for it happening or you'd be disgusted in me or something," I said in a barely audible voice, but he heard.

"I could never hate you and I could never be disgusted in you, Kellin. I know this wasn't your fault. It was all-" He stopped talking and his eyes flashed with anger. He looked like he wanted to go on a murderous rampage and I was surprised that he hadn't yet.

"How did you even find out?" I asked.

"Craig came to the store a little after you left and said you two slept together, but he didn't tell me the whole story. If he had then I would have snapped his neck then and there," he said.

"Please don't," I said quickly.

"Don't what?" he asked.

"Don't go after him. I don't want you getting hurt and I don't want you to be in jail either," I said.

"You know I can't promise that I won't go after him," he said. I held his hand tighter.

"Please. I don't know what I'd do if something ever happened to you. I don't know what I'd do if you got sent to jail for murdering someone. Please, Vic, do this for me. Promise me you won't go and find him," I begged.