Our Version of Parenting

Fights

Brielle's pov
I was playing with Kyungju when Jeno walked in and started talking about how robots where better than dinosaurs. I will not have that nasty agenda spread to my baby. "Dinosaurs are better and that's on PERIODT!" Jeno then responded, "But robots are smart." I laughed and retorted, "Dinosaurs are smarter than you, stupid." We continued bickering until I'd had enough. "I think I like dinosaurs more than you." Jeno looked me in the eyes and added, "Maybe I like robots more than you."

We giggled about it for the rest of the day. I felt bad about saying that to him, but I decided to marinate in my decision and hug my baby. "You know kyungju, I think I gotta apologize to daddy, huh?" I walked to him and asked if he had a moment. "Yeah sure, why?" "So, I don't actually like dinosaurs more than you. I was just disagreeing with you and wanted the last word. I'm sorry I said that jenjen." Jeno smiled and replied, "You're better than robots, I must admit. I'm sorry too baby girl." He pulled me in for a hug and squished me, "YOUR TITS ARE SQUISHING ME!" He started laughing like a mad man. I guess my comment towards his pectoral muscle was pretty conical. You would not believe how much we get into arguments over things like this.

Last month we argued about food, the month before it was types of pasta, but all together we've never had a HUGE argument. Nothing has ever gotten physical, never once has he hit me. I'm thankful for that. I'm very thankful that we aren't in a bad relationship. I love Jeno very much but I can feel the big fight is coming. I can feel it in my bones. I'm not really ready for that. For now I just wanna hug my jenjen.
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Its November now, and we're getting ready for lele's birthday celebration and things are getting heated in an argument over what colors go best with each other. He's getting really annoyed with me. At this point I don't care, he's being stubborn and isn't taking my advice. "Lee Jeno I don't want to fight with you. This party is for Chenle, he's gonna see his girlfriend for the first time in a year and a couple months. Take my fucking advice." Jeno looked me in the eyes and replied, "Brielle, I know what is best for my friend. I've known him since I was 15, we're in our 20's now. I know Chenle."

The argument continued on, "Fine, be stubborn. I'm done arguing with you. You're lucky I didn't punch you." I said almost punching the shit out of Jeno when I heard the next words that came out of his god forsaken mouth. "Fuck off, you're such a little bitch. And a pussy too, you say you're gonna punch me, then do it hoe!" He then realized the words that came out of his mouth. Shock covers his whole body and a tear ran down my face. Fear coated his words, "S-shit,I-I didn't mean that! I-I was mad a-and-" he had no idea what I was capable of, and he sure ass hell was gonna find out. Poor Jeno, I'm gonna live up to what I said and it's gonna hurt.

Except I'm gonna do something worse than punch him. I then picked up my bag and left him there, in the store my son waddled behind me. I picked him up and we left Jeno in the store. He had the car keys so we're walking. The closest house from the mall is Kim's. Jaemin called Jeno and asked him what in the fuck he did to make me completely leave him in a store, alone.  "Are you leaving him leaving him?" Kim asked "No I couldn't, not over a stupid argument like this. But still, what he had said hurt bad."

Kim and Jaemin let me and kyongju stay the night. I couldn't be more thankful, I don't wanna be in a house with Jeno at the moment. He's too aggravated, he could hurt me or worse our son. I love Jeno, I do but sometimes he can be a lot to handle. He doesn't know his own strength, and he could easily hurt me or kyungju so I'd like to let him cool off for the night. Tomorrow I will confront jeno about the fight.

The next day I got to my house and apologized, "I was being stubborn as well and I wasn't having a great day, i shouldn't have made you mad." Jeno's eyes soften as he looked down into my eyes and cupped my head in his hands. "Listen, I apologize. I shouldn't have said those things and I have never thought them of you. You mean the world to me, I never wanna fight like this again. Can we go back to normal?" I hesitantly nodded in agreement and hugged Jeno. Our son found his way in and was trying to climb on to the couch.

Fighting isn't fun, no matter who you are. Fighting with your significant other hurts you deep, deep down, in a pit of your heart that you didn't even know existed. You will feel that pain until you can make it up to your significant other, it hurts and it hurts horribly. You won't realize the pain until it becomes unbearable, until you think back at it and the pain is renewed. Renewed but lessened by a significant amount.

Your relationship can be ruined by a fight, if it hurts you it effects your mood. If you let this continue ,when you start acting differently to your significant other they will notice it. When they notice it they could, definitely fall out of love with you. Luckily Jeno and I still love each other very much and would never brake up with each other over a silly fight.

We decided on turning on a child friendly movie and cuddling up in a spooning position. The comical movie played and our son watched with his big beautiful eyes, they captured the light just right. I've never seen a cuter baby, ever. About 30 minutes into the movie Kyungju  fell asleep and I did as well, leaving Jeno to his thoughts. He then said in a whisper, just before I fell asleep, "Tomorrow we finnish planning the wedding, I can't wait to marry my baby girl." We had been planning the wedding for months now and it just missed Chenle's birthday by a week. The week after the wedding is Chenle's birthday celebration.

Next chapter: wedding and reunion