"What if we do a name that starts with an A, since both of ours start with an A" Austin said. I laughed. It was 2 in the morning, and we had just gotten to bed. The lights were out, and tv was off. It was pitch black and silent.
"Austin go to bed" I chuckled.
"How am I supposed to sleep, I'm excited" he said and rolled over to face me.
"We don't even know if it's a boy or a girl yet" I chuckled.
"I know, but just that fact that it's mine, and you are mine, just makes me feel some type of way" he said and moved closer to me.
"Do you want a boy or girl?" I asked.
"Hopefully I can have both with you one day" he said. He lied his head down on my stomach and I put my fingers in his hair.
"You want more after this one?" I asked.
"Of course, I want a whole family with you, and I want to get old and boring with you" he chuckled. I smiled.
"You're not nervous at all?" I asked.
"What's there to be nervous about?" He asked.
"I don't know, I mean, it's a child" I chuckled.
"Yeah, but financially we'll always be fine, we have a strong relationship, I think we'll be fine" he said. I was nervous, not because of money but because of all the problems Austin and I have had in the past. He's cheated many times, and he is very easily influenced by friends who aren't the greatest influencers.
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(Flash foreword to 18 weeks pregnant)
"Okay is what happens today?" Austin asked. He had one hand on the steering wheel and the other on my thigh. Scooter was in the backseat.
"Today, we're supposed to find out the gender" I said.
"Well that's exciting" Austin said excitedly.
"Yeah, but I think I want it to be a surprise" I said.
"I don't know, I want to know now" Austin said.
"Well, what if we have the doctor tell Scooter, then we can do the gender reveal at the baby shower, instead of waiting until it's born" I said.
"It's whatever you want" he said with a smile.
We got to the doctors office. The difference between this appointment and the previous is this time Austin was with me the whole time. In the room with me, he was apart of all of it.
Once the appointment was over, only scooter knew the gender. The whole ride home scooter was teasing us about it, saying that we were going to be so happy and that he can't believe we don't want to know. I wasn't going to crack but I wasn't so sure about Austin cause I know he wanted to know.
We got home and scooter was immediately planning a baby shower. Scooter seemed more excited than I was. I walked over to the tv and put it on. The first thing that came on was TMZ. And of course, the topic of conversation was Austin and I. Austin and I loved watching TMZ just for the gag of it, everything was always so inaccurate and dramatized.
"Post Malone and Avery Kelley are having problems again?" The woman taunted. That line was the headline labeled across the bottom of the screen.
"Oh absolutely, there's not a problem in the world that we don't have" Austin said, opening a beer and laughing.
"Last week, this photo was taken of Avery on Hollywood Boulevard" the woman said, a photo of me carrying lots of bags appeared on the screen. Yeah, I was shopping that day because nothing is fitting me the same anymore.
"As you can see, she has put on a few pounds, but the word around town is that Post isn't too happy about her weight gain" the woman said in a serious tone. I looked over at Austin and dropped my jaw and covered my mouth with my hand.
"How dare you?" I said sarcastically.
"What can I say? I like my girls skinny only" he said shrugging his shoulders. We shared a laugh and continued watching. A photo of Austin and I appeared on the screen. It was a photo from literally months ago and the photo was caught at a second where it looked like Austin and I were fighting.
"This is ridiculous" I chuckled.
"They didn't even bring up a possibility of being pregnant, usually that's the conclusion they jump too" scooter said.
"She doesn't even look pregnant though" Austin said.
"She's a small woman, she won't really show a belly" Scooter said.
Austin and I continued to watch the TMZ drama and scooter continued to plan.
I was lied up on Austin. He was laying on his back with his head resting on the arm of the couch and I was sprawled out with my head sitting comfortably on his chest. He arms are around me and his hands rested on my body. One on my upper back and the other on my lower back. Just laying there made me feel so at home and safe. I felt at peace with life. It was the greatest feeling, the happiest I've felt in a long time.
