CHASING STARS

Chapter 20 - ( HEART WILL FOLLOW)

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After crying a river, sending countless voice mails to her Devi Maiya and looking outside the window, peeking through the curtain to check on him. She hide again behind the curtains when she saw him looking at her direction. He is still here? Damn this man. She feels her head spinning. She was okay.. if not better before seeing him but now she is not sure of anything. He will always have that power over her heart. She is still wearing his coat. Now when he is not here to read her eyes. She can finally admit to herself that how greedily she has been clutching his coat to her body. It reeks his presence. It smells like him. It's almost like she is still in his embrace. Heaven knows the true desire of her heart that how much she loves being in his arms. He is here to make everything right. To find their happy story but only if it was that easy. She is afraid of him changing his ways again. She has seen him being all nice and good to her before and what it did to her poor little heart. How in just one moment he can flip her world and tear it apart. To protect his ego, he accused her. To protect his sister, he manipulated her. To protect himself from pain, he blamed her. He looks different now.. There is an determined shine in his eyes which is expressing his true intentions to her. She wants to run straight into his arms and go where ever he takes her but now her broken heart and insane insecurities are eating her alive.

"Oh.. Arnav Ji, why can't you just express your mind and end our misery?"

"Please go.."

"How long you are gonna stay here?"

"Hope you are okay."

Khushi talks to herself, fighting her conflicting desires.

With running tears and a red nose, she continues talking to herself, cursing Arnav.. In her own way adding few rakshas, laad governor here and there. When a knock on door from Lavanya breaks her pattern.

"Khushi.. Khushi ?" Lavanya knocks the door before entering the room.

She can now see Khushi wiping her tears frantically and ruining her expensive make-up. Oh this silly child women.. Lavanya shakes her head.

"Yes.. Lavanya Ji.. Please come."  Khushi invites Lavanya wiping her tears.

"Khushi.. Offoo  Khushi.. You silly girl! Have you been crying?  And look what have you done to your beautiful face. Only if Sam was here right now, he would've died holding his chest. You've ruined your make-up by crying. Come see for yourself!"

Lavanya takes Khushi near the dressing table and point her to look in the mirror.
Khushi just stares at herself silently when Lavanya makes her sit and starts removing her make-up.

"It's crazy to even see ASR in this way. But ASR is always a different person when it comes you Chamkili."  Lavanya speaks to Khushi smiling to herself remembering ASR and his ways of tormenting Khushi Kumari Gupta.

"Lavanya Ji.. What are you saying?" Khushi asks Lavanya all confused.

"All I am saying is that be kind to yourself Khushi.. Don't hurt yourself. I know it's hard for you to trust him again and I am not asking you to go easy on him but please don't suffer.. Let it happen. Listen to him and try to give him a chance. I am your friend but I am his friend too and I've seen him before you. What he was like before meeting you and what he is now. He is hurting in love but now he is living." Lavanya speaks her mind to Khushi..

"It was devastating for me when ASR and I broke up but I knew it long before him that it was coming and it was for good. I've seen the undying passion for you in his eyes. ASR was always in love with you. You don't know Khushi.. But he has been in love with you for too long. You guys are lucky don't let anyone take that away from you Khushi.."