Hurting everyday (choni)

Chapter 12

Cheryl's pov
After we ate food Jason went to "bed" then we watched one more movie and now it's 10.55pm and we are pretending to be asleep betty and Veronica are together on one sofa and am on the other we have been like this for almost a hour now but I know they are still awake because every now and then I will feel something getting throw of me and them quietly giggling. I finally heard someone coming down the stairs "are you sure they are asleep sir?" I heard Toni's voice say quietly she was so quite I could hardly hear her "of course do you think I would want to get caught with you like this now go get in the car so we can talk" Jason said I heard the door open and shut and Jason walked into the room but the room was in complete darkness so even if we where sitting up staring at him he would be able to know unless he turned the light on. "Cheryl! Am going out for a little I will be back in the morning" Jason whispered "ok" I said back with a fake tired voice he left the room and when we hear the front door open then close again all three of us jumped up and ran to the window. My heart was going crazy at what I was going to see. Jason got into the car with a huge smile while Toni just had her head down. Jason took something of his neck and dangled it in front of Toni while saying something but I could make out what he was saying Toni looked at it and tried to grab it but Jason moved it out her way. Toni looked like she was begging for it and Jason was just watching her beg with a smile "we have to help her" Veronica said but I grabbed her arm and dragged her back "just watch" I said as I focused on the car again Jason moved closer to Toni and then said something Toni hugged herself and looked away Jason leaned back into his chair with a smirk Toni said something and Jason laughed. "I don't understand" betty said I rolled my eyes and told her to shut up. They talked a little more before Toni nodded her head my heart started to break as I watch my girlfriend lean in and kiss my brother. "No" was the only word that came out of my mouth Veronica and Betty gasped I kept watching as Toni pulled away Jason had a huge smile and Toni looked at the window all three of ducked our head "so you think she saw us?" Veronica said I slapped the back off her head "no but she can probably hear you" I said laying on my back and covering my face with my hands "they are gone" Veronica said before laying next to me and betty did the same "she said she loved me" I said trying not to cry Veronica grabbed my hand and Betty did the same "there has got to be a reason Cheryl she does love you I know it" Veronica said trying to reassure me but it didn't work "she kissed him v! She wasn't forced she decided to kiss him!" I said with anger building up in me "and she obviously knew she was going to do it because of what she said to u v" betty said Veronica sat up and looked at us anger all over her face "no! I know Toni she has been hurt to many times for her to do it to someone else there is a reason just wait ok! Wait she will have a good reason" Veronica got up and sat on the sofa "v what if your wrong?" Betty said sitting up and and facing the girl "AM NOT WRONG!" Veronica shouted I got up and sat next to her she was shaking with anger she looked into my eyes we where both so close to tears "she wouldn't do that Cheryl...I know her I know what she is capable of and hurting you is not one of them" Veronica said I nodded and smiled as a tear fell from my eye "we will wait" I said leaning my head on her shoulder betty walked over and cuddled into me I smiled as silent tears fell from my eyes. I must have cried myself to sleep because I woke up to the sound of the front door opening and closing I jumped up which woke both of the girls up when they realised what happened they jumped up and waited "am going to bed it's been a long night so try not to wake up the girls " Jason's voice said smugly "yes sir" Toni squeaked after we heard Jason go up the stairs and into his room we walked out Toni was crouched down with her face in her hand "Toni? Are you ok?" Veronica said as we got closer she jumped up and straightened her hoodie "yeh am fine" she said she pulled her hoodie so it was hiding her neck I looked at betty suspiciously then back at the girl "Toni what happened? What did he do?" Veronica she asked getting closer Toni shock her head and backed away "I don't know what you mean I was with the serpents Jason saw me walking and kindly let me in his car...am going to bed" Toni said as she tried to get past Veronica but she just grabbed Toni's shoulder and pushed her back "don't lie to us Toni we saw what happened in the car with you and Jason and your not wearing your serpent jacket you have to wear it for meetings" betty said Toni looked at me "am-am so sorry Cheryl" she said then her eyes went to the floor "why? What possible excuse do you have for kissing my brother?" I spat at her she flinched a little "I-I-I" Toni stuttered "you do have a reason right?" Veronica said with hope in her voice Toni tried to get past again but this time Veronica threw her to the floor "tell me you have a reason Toni" she said standing over the girl "am sorry" Veronica froze before she grabbed Toni's hoodie and pulled her onto her feet then she basically ripped the hoodie if her body. Toni stood there looking down in shame betty gasped at the trail of hickeys starting at the top of her neck and ending at the bottom of her stomach. Veronica balled her fists "look me in the eyes and tell me you wanted him to do this to you" Toni stayed silent and kept her eyes on the floor Veronica slapped her around the face and made her look into her eyes "Veronica that's too far" betty said but she soon shut up when Veronica basically burnt holes through her "look me in the eye! And tell me you wanted him" Toni looked into Veronica's eyes with tears and said "I-I wanted h-him" Veronica let her go and threw her hoodie back at her I walked straight up to Toni and slapped her "you disgust me" I growled in her face "am-" Toni started "if you say your sorry one more time I will kick you out of this house" I said she nodded and kept her head down "get out of my face" I spat with my resting bitch face "yes mrs" she said as she put her hoodie on and started walking up the stair when she was gone I fell to the floor. "I...can't....breathe" I said between sobs "am so sorry Cheryl that's not the Toni I know" Veronica said I could tell she was heartbroken herself she had so much trust and hope in Toni and that's just crumbled from underneath her "it's not your fault v" I said kissed her cheek gently she smiled and stood up she grabbed my hand and pulled me up "do you have any icecream?" Betty asked I smiled "yeh in the freezer" I answered me and Veronica got comfortable on the sofa as we waited for betty to bring the ice cream once we did we all sat together and cried and ate icecream.
*one week later*
Toni's pov
I looked at myself in the mirror "god you look horrible" I said to myself my bottom lip was bruised and cut, I cant open my left eye because of how swollen and bruised it is I haven't ate any food since I first came her so my face is disgustingly skinny, under my right eye is black because the lack of sleep and my cheek bone is bruised. "It will be worth it when we find her" I said fixing my hair even tho there is not point since nobody has seen my face at all for the past week I keep my head down at all times...unless it's me and Jason alone....he likes eyes contact. I miss Cheryl she won't speak to me unless she is demanding me to do something not that I have tried to talk to her because I have nothing to say. Veronica won't even look at me she has smacked into me a few time while walking through the halls at school but that's it. Betty tried to talk to me but I didn't talk back what would I say? Because every word that came out of my mouth would have just been a lie. "Once we find Ella everything can go back to normal" I said I laughed a little. This is the longest I have looked at myself in the mirror since this whole thing happened the hickeys where still there but covered with new ones. I stood up and sat on my bed facing away from the mirror "she is in riverdale somewhere" I said to myself repeating the words Jason told me two day ago just after we...you know. I miss Cheryl so much I miss her laugh and smile ,her touch,her kiss that's why I won't heal as quick I will heal like a human without Cheryl. The information I have on where she is, is that she's in riverdale and that she is alive. "Toni! Get here now or we leave without you" Cheryl screamed at me from down stairs I grabbed my biggest hoodie and put it on then I pulled the hood over my face and walked down stairs Cheryl and Jason where waiting for me Cheryl glared and Jason smirked when I got to the bottom of the stairs "you should be grateful mother and father let you back in school" Cheryl spat walking out the front door I sighed and tensed when Jason's arm was around my waist "good job at hiding your face I might give you another hint tonight" he smirked as he guided me out the house "thank you sir" I said desperately he pulled me into his chest "kiss me" he said moving a piece of hair from my face I looked over and saw Cheryl glaring at me "but sir Cheryl-" I whispered he gripped my already bruised wrists and said "do you want to find your sister?" he growled I put my hands on each side of his face and leaned into him our lips connected my heart ached and my body felt so weak I pulled away and looked at the floor in shame "think of Ella" Jason whispered before he let me go and walked away i didn't even to try to look at Cheryl as I know she would be staring at me and I can't handle that look today and am so close to getting another clue and if she sees me Jason won't tell me. "Cheryl she can get in with you today" Jason said with a laugh "fuck you no" Cheryl said but Jason begged "please am going to see polly before school" "sir I will just walk" I butted in but I regret that when Cheryl shouts "shut up slut nobody asked you" my wolf has officially give up on me. I felt empty and cold "wow Cheryl calm down it's only one ride" Jason said in my defence "fine get in" Cheryl said quickly getting into the car I looked over at Jason he smiled and mouthed "good luck" I put my head down again and got into her car. I stayed silent and kept my head down "I thought you loved me" Cheryl's mind said I stayed silent she sighed "I told the vampires about what happened so your safe" I whispered faintly "do you think I really care about them right now? You cheated on me Toni! With my brother!You broke my heart! I loved you Toni and you just threw me away like I was nothing" a tear fell from my eye "am sorry" I whispered as I bite my lip to stop the sobs from escaping "sorry doesn't mean anything to me" Cheryl spat I nodded and just like that the rest of to ride was in complete silence. When we going to school I jumped out the car before she had parked property "thank you mrs" I said trying to get away from Cheryl as fast as possible as I knew reggie and his friends would be right around the corner waiting for me but because Cheryl parks in a different place then Jason I have a chance to get into the bathroom to hide from them. Haha nope did I really think today would be easy as the second I walked through the doors reggie's arm slipped over my shoulder "good morning to you topaz" reggie said as he started leading me towards the P.E hall Which I weird because he would normally just push me to the floor, laugh and say some nasty stuff but it's nothing compared to what Jason says to me. "Good morning reggie" I squeak as he threw me onto the floor when we entered the hall he then grabbed my ankles and started dragging me into the middle of the room "let me go" I whispered trying to get out of his grip once he let go I got up and saw chuck with his arm around midge. I kept my head down just like I always do "look at me!" Reggie screamed I didn't, I couldn't "please just let me go" I whispered backing away reggie grabbed my arm and with my other hand I slapped him. As I tried to run chuck stood in my way and grabbed my hair I yelped in pain as my body smacked against the floor again. "Am sorry please let me go" I shouted but then suddenly I had a new sharp pain in my stomach "shut up slut" reggie barked I immediately shut my mouth and I didn't plant on opening it again. "Guys just leave her she isn't worth it" midge said but of course they didn't listen "why don't you go wait outside babe and make sure nobody comes in" Chuck said seconds later I heard of heals walking out the hall and the door shut behind her "do you really think you  would get away with what you just did?" Reggie spat I just covered my face with my arms and hands as I prepared myself for more pain.

I told you that it's sad and triggering but I like writing it so fuck it. I hope you enjoyed? Is that the right word to say? Anyway tell me what you think ok bye xxxx