Desperado [18+] {Discontinued}

CHAPTER SEVEN~ LAILA'S WISDOM

Harlem,New York- 02/14/20
Lopes Household~ 4:57pm

Today was the worst day of my life, number one reason why I hated Valentines Day.

The day I lost my babygirl.

I was eight months pregnant when Laila died. Today was her birthday, she would've been two years old.

I miss her so much, it hurts.

Right now I was laying in my bed, I knew it was the afternoon because the sun looked like it was about to set. I haven't left this bed nor this room unless I had to do my hygiene or pee. Food wasn't needed, I was used to not eating for hours.

So far the only people to check on me was Reigndrop, Janet and Marlon when they came over and Mama K when she called. I didn't answer but I did listen to the voice-mail.

02/14/20-11:54am~Hello Lisa, it's Katherine. I called to check on you, I know you miss Laila, Michael does too...we all do. I hope you're okay, please call back to let me know, alright? I love you honey and I miss you, haven't seen you in a while.....

I sighed, hearing her voice was soothing. Not soothing enough.

I looked at the time 5:08pm.

*grrrrl*

I winced as my stomach growled again, I started getting hunger pains.

"Guess I have to eat now"

I finally got up from my bed and stretched. My bones were aching and cracking as I walked out my room.

I went downstairs into the kitchen. Looking through the cabinets for something to snack on, nothing. I saw absolutely nothing.

I went to the fridge next....

Old ass leftovers from a week ago, must be Reign's.

Milk

Orange Juice, I only buy that for Michael when he comes over.

Strawberries, for Janet when she comes over.

Yea! They got they own shit here!

Ummmm....

*ding dong*

I groaned as I went to the front door. I looked through the peephole to see Janet... and Michael.

I opened the door, getting tackled to the ground.

"Oh my god! You're alive!" Janet yelled.

"Owww!"

Janet finally got up off of me, pulling me up. She smiled

"I've been worried about you....we all have" She said nodded her head towards Michael

"I'm fine Janet. I'm fine" I looked directly at Michael. He looked at me like he didn't believe me.

Michael scoffed, rolling his eyes. "Yea Right" I heard him mumble.

I looked up at him and squinted my eyes in irritation.

"Ahem!"

We both turned our heads at Janet. She smiled while putting another Strawberry in her mouth.

"Um I'm gonna leave yall to talk. I gotta meet Reign and Jaiden at the Diner.....soo..bye!"

I watched as she walked out the house.

I sighed and walked up the stairs only to be pulled back by the collar of my shirt.

I groaned as Michael dragged me to the couch, we both plopped down and sighed.

"Did you eat anything?"

I shook my head.

"You know I loose my fucking appetite Michael" I looked over at him, feeling tears comes to my eyes. I watched as tears formed in his eyes, he pulled me close. I started crying in his arms, my tears soaking up his hoodie.

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"I miss her too baby but we gotta be strong for her. She wouldn't want us to be heartbroken" I whispered, kissing her forehead.

She rose up and wiped her tears in frustration "How can I be strong when it's my fault she's gone Michael! I killed her! I was being a dumbass and killed her!"

I got up and grabbed her by her shoulders. "You ain't kill her! That car crash was a accident! You couldn't control what happened Lisa!"

"It wouldn't of happen if I stopped at the light! If only I stopped, she would be here and we would've been happy!"

"We were happy Lisa! We are happy"

She snatched away from me. "You couldn't even look at me! You h-hated me for that, i-i know you did....y-you told me to stay here an-and I didn't listen. I thought i had a gut feeling that something was wrong, knowing damn well it was her telling me to keep my ass here! I thought you was messin around...i-i let my own issues get in the way of her safety....it should've been me....i shouldn't even be here!"

I gently laid my hands on her face, both of our eyes were vibrant, bloodshot. "How the fuck can you say that? Huh! It's was either you or her....i-i couldn't loose you Lisa...i mean losing Laila broke me but losing you would've killed me. I had to make a choice and I chose you! Lisa I chose you, I needed you"

Lisa shook her head "You loved Laila more than anything and my selfishness took her away from us, from you....you were so happy when I told you I was pregnant but you were in love when you found out it was with a girl...Hell! You picked the name for her! I have never saw you as happy as you were then, now. Because of me, your not yourself. Your a hollow ass shell, your fucking broken and i can't fix it....not like I how I want to, not like you need me to..." I took his hands away from my face "Michael, I-"

"No."

I had a cold look in my eyes, they turned dark. I could tell she was scared.

"But Mich-"

"I said no Lisa!" I grabbed her wrist, squeezing them tightly. I knew i was causing her pain.

"Now you fucking listen! I'm of hearing the excuses, I'm tired of you blaming yourself for her death! IT AIN'T YO FAULT! DAMM IT LISA! You say I should've chose her, but I didn't ....lisa you said i was so in love with her but baby, the truth was I was in love with you, i am in love with you. I could never put someone over you...even if it was Laila. Lisa you have to understand that! You are my whole world, my whole life....without you I would literally be nothing. If you didn't make it, I would've killed myself just to still be with you somehow, some fucking way!"

She collapsed into my arms, sobbing. My grip on her tighten even more.

"I'm sorry...I'm so so ssssorryyy Michael" I felt her body shakenand jurk with each sob.

I just kissed her forehead, rocking her back and forth.

I started sobbing "Don't baby....just don't"

Heaven couldn't wait for Laila but I thank God it waited for Lisa....