Not The Life I Expected

Chapter Seventeen

Days and weeks go by, I've already gotten that baby bump and the band has just started their tour. I have had plenty of time to think while the guys are on stage, I think about if Brian is truly going to change or if he's just going to become that abusive asshole after the baby is born. I'm only two months pregnant, and I've never been so scared in my life. I wonder how Brian will be as a father, how I will be as a mother, and how our child will be at concerts and around the guys. I already know the guys will be great uncle's. 

It feels like I've barely gotten any sleep since Brian said he's going to change. I've been watching my back just in case, but I know he wouldn't try to do anything while we're around everyone else. Most of my bruises have finally started to fade away, and I'm starting to gain weight back. Of course, I'm going to gain weight. I'm two months pregnant, but still. I lost quite a bit of weight since he became abusive. As of now, I weigh 130 pounds, mostly because of the pregnancy. 

"Do you need anything while I'm at the store, babe?" Brian asks me, I shake my head.
"No, I'm good. Thank you." He looks at me and sits down next to me. 
"I feel like something is wrong. Is everything okay?" I nod, 
"I'm tired, and it's probably just mood swings again." Brian sighs and nods, 
"I'll be back in about an hour." Our lips meet each other, "I love you." I smile at him and feel my cheeks turn a little red.
"I love you, too."

As Brian walked off the tour bus, Arin comes on. We both give each other glares, jokingly. "The fuck you want, Ilejay?" I ask him. 
"I want to get on the fucking bus. You mind, Haner?" I give him one last glare and chuckle, 
"I guess not." He sits next to me, and pushes me lightly. 
"How are you feeling?" He asks as he rubs his stomach, signaling he's also asking about how my stomach is feeling. I only shrug, 
"Alright, I suppose. I still get sick during the night, but I'll be fine." He nods. 

"Have you thought about any names yet?" I nod and smile, 
"We thought of Alexia Lee for a girl, and Ivan Nicholas for a boy." Arin smiles at me, 
"Those are awesome names!" 
"Thank you... Brian came up with them, really. I couldn't think of anything."
"Well, tell him I said good job," he stands. "I'm gonna go get some food since there's nothing here, and there's a McDanks within walking distance. Want anything?" I shake my head, 
"No, but thank you. I'm still feeling sick." 
"Alright... shoot me a text if you change your mind." We both smile at each other and Arin walks off the bus.