After spending the night with Arin, it was time for the bands concert here in New York. I got myself ready and headed to the stadium with the guys on the bus. Before we left, Brian stopped me and apologized for what happened last night and he never meant what he said, and that he didn't touch any other women. I had a hard time believing that, so I just nodded and we kissed, and "made up".
The guys warm ups normally take a while, so I had time to kill. Matt was listening to his iPod, and singing songs for the list for tonight's concert. Brian, Zacky and Johnny were tuning, and Arin was doing a bit of drumming on a single drumming pad, or whatever you call them. I walk off and lock myself in the bathroom to think.
I thought about what had happened last night. I kissed Arin, and cheated on Brian. That's something I vowed to never do in my life, but I blew it. At the same time, it was a mistake, but then again... I didn't care. I thought about how many times Brian has cheated on me in the past, what he doesn't know won't kill him.
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I come home from a long day of shopping. I went out to get some food for the house, and something for tonight. It was me and Brian's fifteen year anniversary of being together. I got something to make for a nice dinner tonight, and something to wear for our celebration later. I put things away, but I'm distracted by a thumping upstairs.
I walk up to the bedroom to find Brian in bed with another woman. My world comes crashing down. I know he's cheated before, but I've never caught him in the act. "Brian! What the fuck!?" I scream at him. He jumps and covers the lower part of his body. I start to break down and I storm out of the bedroom. I'm quickly followed by Brian trying to explain himself, but it was no use.
"Mackenzie, come on... don't go!" I grab my car keys and look back at him.
"Why shouldn't I!?" I scream again as his mistress walks by again,
"Better than last time, Brian." She winked and walked out of the house.
I shake my head and begin to go out the door until he grabs my arm. "Stop trying to run away!" He forces me to drop my keys, and pushes, and pins me against the wall hard. I look away from him, but takes my face by force and makes me look at him. "What are you running away from? You said you were going to be gone longer, but you lied to me." I shook my head, and attempt to look away again. He lets go of my face and slaps me. "Stop trying to look away!"
"Let me go, please, Brian." I beg him with tears running down my cheeck. My eyes red and puffy. Brian shakes his head and forces a kiss.
"It's our anniversay... why don't you put something nice on and I'll be right up?" I shook my head and spit in his face,
"Fuck. You." He wipes the spit away and slaps me again, but harder.
"I said... put something nice on and I'll be right up!" He spat at me, he finally lets go of me and push me away. "Go!" I grab what I bought not too long ago and make my way upstairs.
***
I rest my body on the wall and rub my stomach, I hold back my tears and walk back to the guys as they're just finishing their warm ups. I look over at Arin and he mouths, "Are you okay?" I begin to nod my head, but shake it instead and shrug. He sighs and mouths again, "I love you." I smile at him and nod. Brian walks over and my smile is gone. He kisses my cheek,
"Are you alright, babe?" He asks me. I nodded my head,
"Yeah, I'm fine, just tired. I didn't get much sleep with the boys kicking last night." I lie to him.
"I love you." He smiles at me with hope in his eyes. I put another fake smile for him,
"I love you, too." He kisses my lips and they all walk off to get on stage.
I watch and wait on the side. I've put almost all of my attention on Arin, but I keep having to take my attention away to put it back on Brian. I look over at the crowd and there's a young couple watching. The girl recognizes me and waves in excitment, I wave back and smile at her.
***
My full attention is on Jimmy once again, I couldn't help but watch him play. He's definitely the best drummer I know, and I love him to pieces. He's the only person in the band that knows about Brian's abusive behavior. I take my attention off from Jimmy and look over at the crowd. I look over at a guy who recognizes me and waves, I wave back and smile at him. I look over at Brian, I didn't realize he was watching me, but he obviously saw me waving at the guy because he looked beyond pissed. I walk away to the dressing room before the concert ends and the guys walk off stage.
I can hear Brian tell the guys he needs to talk to me, and he walks into the room. He locks the door and walks over. "Who were you just waving at?" He asks, I shrug my shoulders and tell him,
"It was just a fan... he waved at me first." I look away, but Brian grabs my face to look back at him.
"Don't you fucking lie to me. I won't have it!"
"You lie to me all the time, dickhead!" He lets go of my face and slaps me, then taking hold of it again. I tear up, "Stop, you're... you're hurting me." He lets go once again to just slap me once more and pushes me on the couch, just to sit on top of me.
I hold onto my cheeck and cry, "Stop, Brian!" He shakes his head smirks, "Don't you care that you're hurting your fucking wife!?" He shakes his head once more.
***
The concert has finally ended and the guys walk off stage. Brian immediately walks over to me, and grabs my face gently and kisses me. "You did good." I tell him.
"Thank you, babe." He smiles. We all head back to the dressing room and gets everything back together. We don't get back to the hotel for another hour and a half. I was exhausted and ready to go to bed.
We get back and I take a quick shower, and walk into the bedroom. "Hey, beautiful." Brian greets me as he walks close to me. I smirk and greet him back,
"Hi." He leads me to the bed and lays me down lightly, as he lays over me. I sigh, "I'm not exactly in the mood tonight, Brian, I'm exhausted." He chuckles,
"Yeah, you're going to be exhausted once I'm done with you." He starts kissing my neck, but I push his face away. "Mackenzie, come on... it's been quite some time."
"I told you. I'm tired."
All I wanted to do was go to bed and get a good night's rest.
"Mackenzie, seriously." He takes my arms and start pinning them down. "You can go to sleep... I'll try not to wake you." He winks. I try squirm out of his grip, but it doesn't work now that he's pinning me down harder.
"Brian! Let go!" I yell at him, my voice cracks a little. But he shakes his head, "I thought you'd change!"
"Did you really think I was going to change?" I break one arm free and slap him across the face, and push him off from me. I quickly get up and rush over to my suit case. I cram my clothes in, but Brian rushes over and grabs my arm. "Where the fuck do you think you're going!?"
"I'm leaving you!" I push him away again, but he takes me and tosses me on the floor.
"You're not going anywhere with my kids!" I get myself up from the floor.
"I swear to god, Brian, you will never see these kids! They won't know who the fuck you are, I'll find someone else to father these kids! I won't have a piece of shit like you raise them!" I scream. I run over to my suit case and I'm stopped again, but I come around and punch Brian in the face causing him to fall on the floor and hold his nose.
"Fucking god damn!" He yells. I take my suit case and leave.
A cab is just driving by as I run out and it quickly stops when it notices me. I tell the driver to take me to the airport. I take out my phone and call Arin, "Mackenzie, what the fuck just happened?" I pant and rub the bit of sweat from my forehead.
"Brian didn't change. I punch him in the face, and I left... I finally left." I hear Arin's sigh in relief.
"Where are you going now?" He asks me.
"I'm going home and getting my shit together, I'm probably going to find a hotel to stay at for a little bit."
"No, don't... go to my house, I have a spare key in the pot next to my front door, it's well hidden by the plant but you'll be able to find it."
I control my breathing once again, "Okay, thank you." I say to Arin.
"We have a while until the tour is finished, but I'll be straight home when we're back in California. I told you I'll be there every step of the way for you." I nod my head and smile at his reinsurance. "And Mackenzie..."
"Yeah?" I ask him.
"I love you."
"I love you, too."
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Not The Life I Expected
FanfictionMackenzie and Brian meet in High School and instantly fall in love, it was love at first sight. They soon start dating and nothing can separate them, until Brian and his friends start a band called "Avenged Sevenfold" in 1999. They go out to tour sh...
