Not The Life I Expected

Chapter Twenty-Two

After Brian finally left the hotel room, I walked out and knocked on Arin's door. It was obvious he was still awake, because it only took him less than a minute to answer the door. He silently invites me inside, I could already tell he knows what happened. He probably heard it all since his room is right next to ours. "Tell me everything." Arin tells me, patting the part of the bed next to him. I walk over and sit down next to him, sighing.
"He came into the room, drunk off his ass. He wanted sex, and I told him no, so he freaked out and got on top of me. He pinned down my arms, and when I broke one free... I slapped him across the face. He immediately slapped me after, but he realized what he had just done and got off from me... I locked myself in the bathroom for like, five minutes..." I had to stop myself before I broke into tears, I took a deep breath and continued, "I stormed out and I was getting my things together, but he was trying his hardest to stop me. I eventually stopped... and I gave him one more chance."

I look over to Arin. He was shaking his, obviously because he's disappointed in me. "Mackenzie... you shouldn't have to give him anymore chances." I shrug my shoulders and shake my head, 
"To be honest, I'm so use to giving him so many 'one more chances' that I've lost track. The fucked up part is that I still love him." I don't know why I still love him, I don't know why I love him at all. There's been so many times that I've yelled 'I hate you' to Brian that I thought I really meant it. 

"Promise me you'll leave him." Arin begs me. I look at him and shake my head, I don't think I could ever leave him. I've packed my things and left the house before, at the most, I've probably only left for about an hour and then come back home. 
"Arin, I can't. I just... can't. I love him, and he's the father of my unborn children." I try explaining to Arin, but he doesn't seem to understand it. 
"Mackenzie, please. Just leave him for me!" He begs me one more time, and I have already become annoyed.
"Okay! Why should I!?" Arin immediately followed my question, 
"Because I love you, okay!?" There's a quick silence between the both of us. I knew Arin already had some feelings for me, but I had no idea that he thought he loved me. I could do nothing but stare blankly at Arin. "I have loved you for a long time, I've tried to stop my feelings for you... but I can't shut them off."

I stood up from the bed and sigh, "I should probably go back to my room, Arin. Thank you for listening to me, at least." I told him. Arin also stands up, but takes my hand. I didn't do anything, I just let it happen. I didn't try to take back my hand. His grip was light, I've been so use to my hand being sufficated by Brian's grip that it was all new to me. I look up at Arin and I can feel my whole face turn red, and my heart beat faster. He starts to move in to meet his lips with mine, but I turn away.
"I'm married, Arin..." I take back my hand, "I should really go back to my room... thank you for listening." I don't say anything else and go back to my room.