LILY (A compilation of messy love poems)

Burn

During my arrival after a certain distance, I felt insecure to see her smile and laugh because I wasn't used to that in its entirety. I kept overthinking whether she was okay or if she was pretending. I barked at the wrong tree under that remark, because I was stuck loving her just as broken as before. I wasn't able to appreciate her wholeness, her choice to love me even amidst the casualties. I was stuck in the past, and through this poem, I'm letting go of all that.

I'm happy to know that she's genuinely okay, and with that it's time for me to move on and love her the same way.

"My sincerest goodbye
to the trial on fire
I must let it go
I must see through time
that change is indefinite
and will is unkind
yet the present, it wallows
in severe discontent

I missed you too broken
in a string of regrets
I missed you having noted
every pain that you've felt
but you have moved on
and chose love as a throne
where you are at peace
admiring the unknown

we grew up while away
though it's unclear as day
but we've gone out, matured
in a blessed display
I sought out happiness
in the past mistakes
when I could embrace you tighter
more genuine, I'd relay

so I'm burning down
that China blue town
I am burning down
the flat that surrounds
for the loss to behold
is a price of control
a balance of hue
in the colors, full blown

we have grown better
stronger than strangers
you've adjusted the tears
we've become rather clever
and with that I tell you
I love you, my life
but within this time
I should compromise

though I was away
there's nothing returned
but you eagerly promised
to tell if unheard
and I will keep faith
in that glory, attained
we will love each other more
beyond the reckless
beyond the plain

we've grown and I've noticed
but never apart
I'll burn through the worries
and with that a start...

I trust you

You are a blessing
You are beautiful
You are loved..."