Percy Jackson oneshots (mostly gay)

Perjasico (Part 1)(ANGST/FLUFF) (Requested)

*Percy POV*

The war is over. It doesn't feel real. Annabeth and I broke up because my experience in Tartarus changed me and I realized I didn't love her romantically. She's more of a sister and my best friend. Plus I'm gay. She took it well and said she had realized she wasn't straight either. While in Tartarus I realized I was gay and had a crush on Jason and Nico. Yeah, the newest, happiest, demigod couple. They got together while I was in Tartarus. It's good they found each other, but I couldn't stand to see them together. Annabeth and Piper got together and, even though I'm most definitely gay and not in love with either of them, it hurts to see so many happy couples running around. I now feel bad for Leo, having to be the seventh wheel. I got startled out of my thoughts by none other than Annabeth, "Percy what's wrong? You just keep pushing your food around your plate." I smiled weakly and responded, "Nothing's wrong Annabeth I'm just tired. I haven't been sleeping well because of nightmares." Everyone at the table nodded in understanding. Too bad they don't understand completely. Tartarus changes a person. I was forced to do unspeakable things, that if I ever spoke about, I would get shunned, maybe even executed. I went back to moving my food around my plate. I could feel everyone staring at me and I pictured their worried looks in my head. I looked up and sure enough, everyone was looking at me with their worried stares. I rolled my eyes, "Guys, I'm fine, ok? You don't need to give me your worried looks." Hazle scoffed, "Percy, we know you're not ok. You went through way more than us. We can't even begin to fathom how much worse your nightmares are. Do you not realize that?" I sighed, "Hazle, I understand where you're coming from, but I'm dealing with things. I don't need your guys' pity." I stood up and went to my cabin after sacrificing the rest of my food to Hestia, Artemis, and Poseidon. Three of the gods who actually like me. I locked my cabin and curled myself into a corner. Corners in my cabin are really dark right now because the lights are off. That's how I prefer it these days. Dark but not all dark. I have to have a little night light I guess you would call it. If I'm in a dark room and there isn't at least a little bit of light I'll hyperventilate and proceed to have a panic attack. I was forced to have a checkup with Dr. Sun-God per Poseidon's orders, and I was told this is post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). I was also diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and survivor's guilt. Oh, before I forget, I have the biggest fear of suffocating and water I have ever had in my life, mostly because I've always loved water because Poseidon is my father and all. If anyone heard about that they would laugh up a storm. I can see it now, "Son of Poseidon: Scared of the Water?" Ugh, that would so be something put on Hephaestus TV. For the second time today, I got startled out of my thoughts, this time by a very loud knock on my door, followed by, "Percy please open the door. It's Nico and Jason. *(more loud ass knocking)* PERCY!" I groaned and got up yelling, "ALRIGHT ALRIGHT!" I opened the door and they pushed past me into my cabin to see a complete mess. Not that they could see clearly because of the drapes on the windows making it impossible for light to come through. The only light is coming from the open door and the tiny night light. Then I shut the door and the only source of light was the nightlight. That is until Jason turned on my light. I groaned, "Can you not? I come to my room so I don't have to look at the sun aka light." Jason scoffed and Nico rolled his eyes. Nico picked up a piece of broken glass from a picture frame I broke and said, "You're not ok, Perce. We know you're not. You don't eat anything, you don't come out of your cabin, you never get any exercise unless it's throwing things at your wall and breaking them or training at ungodly times and not sleeping. You obviously have PTSD, anxiety, and survivor's guilt, probably depression too. Why won't you let anyone help you?" I scoffed and turned the lights back off saying, "No one can help me. I'm helping myself." That's when Nico snapped, "How? By never looking at the color red again? Staying away from the sun so you don't remember the heat? Staying in the dark to prove to yourself that nothing is there? You forget I know better than anyone what you went through." That's when I snapped, "You have no idea what I went through down there, Nico. You didn't go as deep as I did. You didn't have to do what I did to survive. You didn't have a wonderful encounter with the arai. You didn't see the actual manifestation of Tartarus. You didn't have to leave behind the people who helped you escape. You didn't scare yourself by using your own powers. You didn't have to go through complete darkness not knowing if you were going to die from something you couldn't even see. You didn't have to do the terrible things I had to do to survive. So no, Nico, you don't know what I went through." With that, I walked past the two stunned demigods and locked myself in my bathroom. I put my back on the door and slid down to the floor. It's too bright in here. I'm going to have to put drapes up in here so if this happens again I won't be uncomfortable like I am now. Ugh, stupid ADHD. I looked to my bottom drawer where I knew my razor blades to be hid. I knew it was a bad idea to cut while they were outside my door, so I just looked away and waited to hear them leave. They didn't. Instead, they knocked gently on the bathroom door and Nico called out, "Percy, I'm sorry. I didn't realize you had to do half the things you had to do, but there's something that you don't realize. I know what it's like down there. The acrid air, the glass beaches, hell I even know what drinking from the Phlegethon feels like. I also know that talking about it might feel bad at first but in the end, it helps. Like right now, you feel better after getting that off your chest. Anyways, if you want to be left alone we will respect your wishes, but just know that Jason and I both are here for you. You can tell us anything and we won't judge you or hate you. Hell, I've probably done worse. And for the record, I've scared myself with my powers before as well. Scared the fuck out of Reyna and Jason as well, but as you can see, they got over it. Trust us, Percy, we're here for you." I heard them both turn from the door and start to walk away. I made a split-second decision and quickly got up, opened the door, and stopped them, "I'm sorry for, you know, everything. I don't want to talk about it now but I will soon." Nico nodded, "Whenever you need us we will either be in the Hades or Zeus cabin. When I say whenever I mean whenever. It can be one am and if you need to talk about a nightmare or just be with someone we are here." I nodded and averted my eyes to the floor, "You know, there is something I could use right now." Jason nodded for me to continue, so I did. "Well seeing as my cabin is trashed and I don't feel like cleaning it up, can I crash with you guys tonight?" They both smiled at me and Jason replied, "We said anything. Come on. It's dangerous in here with broken glass anyways." I nodded my head and all three of us went to the Hades cabin. Nico told me to choose an unoccupied bed and that he'd be right back. I chose one of the beds in the corner so I was surrounded by walls. Nico came back a couple of minutes later with a potion. He came over and sat on the bed next to me and said, "The Hypnos and Hecate cabins got together to make this. It's a sleeping potion. It is supposed to help you get as much sleep as you need without any dreams whatsoever. I use it in extreme cases where I'm scared to sleep. It might be able to help you." I smiled and took the potion, "Thanks. Not just for the potion, but for, y'know, letting me crash here and being here for me." He smiled back and Jason responded, "You don't need to thank us. Just drink the potion and get some sleep. Gods know you need it." I chuckled, "Yeah, I really do need it." I downed the potion and lay down on the bed, pulling the duvet over myself. Nico and Jason smiled at me and both said, "Sleep well, Percy," before leaving the cabin. I fell into a dreamless sleep not long after that.

A/N Part 2 will come whenever the fuck I want it to....love you all.....don't like something in my writing style don't read it.......have a wonderful week and stay safe....drink water don't go outside and if you get Corona I wish you the best of luck to stay away from the die because the big die is bad......anyways TATA loves!!!!

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