We'll protect you (Book 1) || Zainourry Story

Sacrifice

Marcel's POV

Anger is a very deep emotion that runs within every person . The way you show it differs on your capability and personality . As for me I was locked away in a single dark room since I was a child . I had no one to teach me right or wrong . I never had anyone to give me the love everyone needs in their life . We all need a certain hope in our life , hope that will give you strength to face your fear , hope that will help you during bad times , hope that one day everything will be alright .

But the saddest part about hope is that it has a limit . After a certain time my hope started to die , I started to accept the fact that I will keep living my life without any happiness or love . And I was ok with it , after all I know who would love someone like me ... But even though I accepted the fact of life without happiness I never thought the amount of sadness will increase .

I escaped from the orphanage to live my life alone . Even if I was on streets , even if I was living without a shelter or food I was ok but no ... People started to bully me , spit on me as if I was just a piece of garbage but still I lived with that . The point where I decided to end my life was when I got raped by those monsters . I will not say anything cause no amount of words can be said to express what I was feeling .

Just when I thought about giving up on my life I found my alpha ; nick . It was like a cruel joke from the one above . All this time my single hope was my alpha , my savoir and now I had finally found him .

I thought finally everything will be fine , at last i will be Happy . Someone in this world would be there who would love me , protect me . Didn't knew how wrong I was .

Nick did save me from that hell but out of pity not love . And I can't blame him , I know he has every reason to not like me or better hate me but ... But what was I suppose to do . My only hope died that day when nick rejected me . I found myself lost . I had no where to go , no one I could trust . I was all alone .

That was the day I felt anger in my vein . A deep hate running inside my beating heart . My anger was so strong that it was getting out of control . I didn't know what to do , no one was there to teach me , help me . So I locked myself inside my brain . Even if I couldn't be the one for anyone atleast i will not unwillingly hurt them .

But then I found harry ...

Just thinking about it makes me wanna cry . Imagine it like as if you are in a wide cold never-ending ocean constantly drowning from the high tide reaching up till the sky before slamming you down underneath the surface making every breath feel like poison in your veins . Just when you are about to give up a hand pulls you out of the merciless ocean and gives a warm comforting hug to your pale , shivering body . That kind of feeling was the one harry gave me .

I found a shoulder to cry on , I found the arms that held me whenever I was scared or worried , I found the eyes that looked beyond my useless struggles and begging . I found the heart that didn't pity me or used me like other but helped me and loved me for the way I am .

Harry did everything for me when he had nothing to do with me , As for I am a nobody to him . I know how he came here , I also know about his powers and strength . I know he is perfectly capable of leaving this place and live a life happily with his alphas but instead he choosed to stay and help me . Just how can a person be so selfless and caring ...

Although harry helped me in every way possible my anger was still somewhere inside me and it always triggered near nick . I tried my best to forget it or keep it under control but I failed and now I have hurt the only person who ever cared about me .

Currently harry had locked himself inside his room . After all this time I am lost again , the darkness is slowly creeping up to me in the absence of harry . I want to bang on his door , beg for mercy , I want to shout that I am sorry on the top of my lungs but unfortunately I can't move form my bed . My body is badly bruised hence I can't move an inch . I was in pain but it's nothing compared to the guilt that was eating me alive .