We'll protect you (Book 1) || Zainourry Story

Start it all over again

{A/n the song that describes alphas emotions in this chapter is "You are the reason" by Calum scott and song that explains Harry's emotions is "Photograph" by Ed sheeran.  If you have not heard these before then plz do cause they are beautifully written..}

"We need to talk .."

Talk , where two person converse with each other to make the other understand their emotions and feeling . But what would you do when you don't even have the words to express what you mean . Alphas had so much to say but they didn't knew where to start . A single sorry would be so small against the mistakes they have committed , the guilt was nothing compare to the hurt Harry might have felt .

Seeing this inner conflict in alphas eyes Harry gave them a reassuring smile ,

"There are something I need to clear before I say anything to you . You need to know what I am thinking ... You know for me love was a big deal , I spend my childhood with a friend who claimed to love me but I always knew I didn't feel anything for him . Nick was my past that made me understand love is not something that's under your control . No matter how hard I tried I could reflect his feelings back because even then I knew my heart beats for someone else .."

Harry kneeled in front of the alphas who were sat on the couch as he continues to speak ,

"That person are you all . I felt a connection with you so strong that nothing could ever break it , not even your mistakes . No one is perfect , I know that but then too we expect everyone to be the way we imagine them to be . I am not a normal omega , I have power , courage and boldness that I don't think any other omega might have . I always knew this all might affect my relationship with my alphas and I guess I was right . You all are like most of the alphas out there ; controlling , dominating , loving , protective . You need a omega who is made for you , who is the one for you .."

Alphas shook their head rapidly but didn't interrupted harry . Harry smiled at them knowing very well what they were saying ,

"But you all want me , you all choose me as your omega and believe me you have no idea how happy it makes me feel . I had everything I ever dreamed of loving alphas , family , friends but sometimes things are not as they seem . Me not being normal started to effect our relationship . I tried alphas , I tried very hard to be the way you wanted me to be but that's not who I am . Eventually you all accepted me for who I am and I would be thankful for that if you had actually done it not said it ..."

The alphas looked down in shame as Harry got up and walked near the window looking outside deep in thought is he said the next few words ,

"I needed nothing more than your trust , your faith , your love but I couldn't even get that . I don't know where I went wrong , what did I do to deserve what happened to me , to see you kissing someone .." his voice cracked as tears filled his vision . He could still feel the dull pain in his heart as he remember all what  happened that day .

"We are so sorry harry , we -" alphas spoke with a shaky voice but Harry cuts them off.

"I don't need a explanation cause I am damn sure you don't have one . That night I understood one thing loud and clear , forgiving you all was the biggest mistake I have ever committed . Only if I didn't kept ignoring everything in the past maybe we won't be here . So this time I am sorry but I will not forgive you this easily . Right now my heart is begging me to forgive you , to get back the way we were before all this but I can't . This time I will not be blinded by my love ."

The alphas silently cried alone with Harry as they took in everything Harry was saying.  They knew harry was right , he was always right ..

"I loved you all , I still do but this time you all will have to earn ny forgiveness , you will have to prove me that I am not making a mistake by forgiving you . So now we are gonna start it all over again , from now on we are friends just like we were before . I am still your omega but you are no longer my alphas .."