REMDY ONE SHOTS

☾Love Was Made to Break☾

Can you one where Andy and Remington are broken up, but they really miss each other and one day Andy breaks down and tries to kill himself, but Remington finds him? You can decide if they get back together or not

★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆★☆★

Trigger Warning: self harm, anorexia, suicide

Andy's POV:

I've never felt more alone in my life. I miss Remington so much. We broke up because I was an idiot and accused him of cheating on me with my bandmate Lonny. Remington had been late coming home from the studio for a few days and I later found out that he'd been hanging out with Lonny, so I just assumed the worst and accused him of cheating on me. I was so upset and hurt that I didn't even give him a chance to explain.

I then found out from Lonny that he was just giving Remington guitar lessons since he'd always fight with Sebastian whenever he tried to teach him. I've tried to apologize to Remington, but he won't answer and of my calls or texts.

This was all two weeks ago.

Since then, I've completely spiraled back into all my old habits. I don't eat anything, and when I do I just throw it back up, I've started cutting again, my anxiety is worse than it's ever been, the only time I leave my room is to go to bathroom, I haven't slept at all, and I haven't spoken a single word to anyone since Remington left. My band has been blowing up my phone with calls and texts, but I haven't responded to any of them. There's only one person I want to talk to, but he hates me.

I'm in so much pain right now and I want to cry, but I can't. I haven't cried at all except for the day he left. I want to cry and just let everything out, but I can't. I'm too numb to cry.

This is your own fault, Andy. You're the one who accused him of cheating.

I know it's my fault. I know I'm an asshole. I know I'm a piece of shit. I know.

You should just kill yourself. You deserve to. It's obvious no one would care. You pushed everyone away, so why keep living?

Maybe I should kill myself. What reason do I have to stay?

After thinking for a while, I decide I'm going to do it. I take out my phone and unlock it, ignoring all the unopened texts from my band. Shaking, I type one last message to Remington.

Remington,
I'm so sorry for everything I said and did. I should have known you would never cheat on me. I'm so sorry I even thought that.
My life has been hell without you. I fell back into all my old habits. I'm sorry I broke our promise. I don't want to hurt you anymore, so this will be the last time you hear from me.
Don't bother trying to save me, I'm too far gone. Please don't blame yourself for any of this. It was my fault. All of this was my fault. If I wouldn't have been so stupid and just let you explain, none of this would be happening. I love you, Remington. I never stopped. I hope you find someone who can love you better than I did, and I hope you go even farther in life than you already have. I'm so proud of you. I'll watch over you from wherever it is I'm going. I love you with all my heart. Tell the rest of the guys I love them and I hope they find a new lead singer. The band can live on without me.
Goodbye,
Andy

I send the message and turn my phone off, knowing that I won't get a response. Even if he does respond, I don't want anything to distract me. I need to do this. I need this to end. I can't be here anymore.

I get up out of my bed and go to the bathroom attached to my room. I don't bother closing or locking the door since I'm the only one here and no one ever comes over. Even if Remington were to try to come here, he'd never get here in time. I heard he's been staying with Emerson, who lives 30 minutes away from me. I only know this because Emerson has tried to contact me as well to tell me what really happened and to see if I'm okay. Well, I'm not okay, but I will be once I end this.