Baby for Mr. Blake

Chapter 32

Thursday, 3 August 2017 – Joshua

I could sense the shift in her, cradled in my arms, she trusts me now completely. After all that I have done, I still feel that I don't deserve this at all, yet here she is seeking solace in me. Her tears soon subside and the whimpers lessen more and more.

"How are you feeling, Darling?" she hides by pressing herself deeper within the hollow of my arm.

"You are safe now. You know you can talk to me, right?" I grasp her chin turning her face to mine. I can see the fight in her eyes. Her mouth opens and closes again and again. 

"There is something I can do that might help you get those words out. Would you like to try Darling?" this might be one of my awful ideas, but if I've accessed her correctly this will help. She nods and hugs me reassuring me to go ahead, I hope.

"Every time you have been upset beyond reason calm words and soft whispers only made it worse. When I spoke to you in a commanding tone you reacted and it even calmed you down, for this reason, I think it will work. Do you trust me?" my fingers trail over her face as I speak.

"Yes" she whispers I spank her soft yet firm. "You need to speak up." I command. "Yes Sir" she confirms louder.

"What I want to do is just that Darling. As I spank you, you need to speak your mind, whatever comes to your mind you need to say it. If I spank you harder you need to say it again, but louder. When you want to stop you just tell me to stop. My intent is not to hurt you, but to free you. Do you understand?" I give her a firm spank. "Do you understand?"

"Yes Sir, I understand" she tells me without a flinch or hesitation. Confirming to me that I made the right decision. "I am proud of you Darling." I kiss her forehead and rub my hand over her ass as she's cradled in my arms. In this position, she would feel safe and loved.

I start with soft rhythmical spanks and as her eyes nod off I know I need to spank a bit harder. I do so keeping the same rhythm. Spank... Spank... Spank, Spank... Spank.

"Everyone leaves me." She says with a slight whimper. "Good Darling, we are going to go on like this until you feel or I feel you said or had enough" I rub over her ass as I talk to her.

Spank... Spank...

"I am angry at them"

Spank

"I love them"

Spank

"I miss them"

Spank... Spank...

"I failed"

Spank

"I had to take care of her"

Spank

"I failed"

Spank

"She left me all alone"

SPANK

"She left me alone!"

Spank... Spank...

"You can be so rude"

SPANK

"You are rude sometimes"

Spank... Spank...

"I was scared so scared"

Spank...

"I tried to block it all"

Spank...

"I couldn't always"

Spank...

"I failed"

Spank... Spank

"I failed myself"

Spank...

"I hate them"

Spank....

"I want them to suffer"

Spank.... Whimper... Spank... Spank, Spank....

"You saved me"

Spank

"You helped me"

Spank

"You lied to me"

Spank

"You you"

SPANK

"You said stuff, it made no sense"

Spank...

"If they cared, they would have stayed"

Spank...

"They didn't stay"

Spank....

"You wont stay"

Spank...

"Yet you made me feel"

Spank...

"Im angry cause you made me hope, you made me feel."

Spank... Spank....

"You made me care!"

Spank.... Spank....

"You made me love you" wait did she just what

SPANK

"Yes, I love you! You made me love you! I'm angry cause you made me love you"

I gently rub her ass as she starts to cry softly in the hollow of my arm. I never ever expected her to love me back. As much as I want to rip her clothes off and pull her down on me, entering her. I need to make sure she is alright. I kiss her forehead "You did well my Darling, I am so proud of you. You amaze me!"

"How are you feeling?" I expect her to curl into me again but in one swift movement, she swings her leg over my lap and straddles me. As I open my mouth to protests her mouth is on mine her tongue searching mine.

"As much as I enjoy this, I need to know how you feel.."

"I have told you all I could. I whispered and yelled all that laid heavy on my heart, but now I need you more."

"Darling I can understand that you feel that need and I promise we will get to that, but we need to talk about what you said."

"Please" she begs as she rubs herself over my hardening shaft.

"You can't be angry with me for loving me, because I know that you won't let others influence your heart in that way. I know you are strong in that way and that is why I admire you so much. Your intentions are always pure."

"I know that believe me I do, but you didn't make it quite that hard to love you, you know. You have a smile beneath your anger and I know one day I'll see that angry smile of yours"

I could not let her finish. I slammed my lips to hers. Losing myself in her sweetness. Her love. She loves me and I love her.

I deepen the kiss twirling my tongue around hers. Her hands grasp my chest and then pulls onto the hair in the back of my neck. She moans into my mouth so sweet. Her hips shift forward and backward on my lap, making me crazy. Her hands move to pants and as she starts to open them I gather the strength.

"Darling, I love you too, so much. I would give everything to have you right here and now, but I don't want our first time to be like this."

"I crave you right now. I crave to taste you." She tells me with a secret naughty smile.

"Oh my, I think I just fell in love with you more. I am going to enjoy those naughty thoughts of yours often." I kiss her again.

"Promise?" she asks as she breaks the kiss

"I promise Darling."