《dead love》

death at first sight

I threw myself on the bed thinking about the jake situation earlier, I cant blame myself for not being in the mood for anything

I stood up and walked over to my closet that was usually very um unclean , but to my surprise it was so organised, I live alone ,I mean my moms a crack addict in rehab and my dad is dead,  I worked 2 jobs for a yr to buy this apartment

My mind wonders back to who the hell organised my closet

"It was me."

I turn around to see the guy from my dreams ,his a lot more see through,
"Thanks" I say and turn to pick out an over sized t-shirt

Than it clicks to me

I spin on my heel

"WHO TF ARE U"

"no need to scream, im just a dead person who's wondering around"

"Wdym no need to scream ....UR DEAD A GHOST IDK"

"sorry I forget humans aren't used too seeing us"

"Yh were not"

"I guess I'd have to explain it all to u, first I saw that you were living here, I died next door 20 yrs ago , I saw u and couldn't lay my eyes off u , I dont usually show myself to people like at all,not even my parents who don't live next door anymore"

"Whats so special about me"

"I dont know u just give off all this energy and drags me to u it makes me want u,, but I cant fall in love with someone alive its all against the rules , I need to fall out of love with you but I cant , I've been trying to fall out of love with u for 2 months, all those days u came back and noticed the place was tidy , it was me i cleaned up, i thought maybe you'd notice me or that this was happening but Ig u thought maybe you cleaned up the night before , i was also the one bring u upstairs to ur bed when u were drunk or fell asleep on the sofa"

Than i realised it was dream guy, his dreamy green eyes his warmth , his soft lips, and than i kissed him
Leaned in and touched his lips for real this time, they were warm just like I remember,  he kissed back, it was a deep needing kiss, a kiss you wouldnt be able to have with just anyone , it felt special it was special, at that moment I didnt feel anything but warm and safe, than he started to feel real , he got coloured , i backed up,
"Wait im alive again, im alive...IM ALIVE" he screamed
"Wait what"
"When a human kisses a ghost the passed soul reconnects with reality, and come alive,I didnt think you'd kiss me , i was gonna come say hi and disappear,but but u took me back to life, I can love you lila I can now love u"
He ran to me placing his soft lips on mine,this kiss was different now, needy and filled with passion still special ,my hands were in his hair pushing him as close as possible to me,our bodied tangled making it hard to tell where mine starts and his ends,I back away as I remember jake
"What?" He asks confused

"Jake" I whisper
"Jake?"
"My boyfriend, how could I do this, I saw u in my dream and it was the best thing ever , I kissed u in my dream and didnt count it as cheating becuase u were just a dream, than you were just a spirit  so again I didnt count it as cheating, but now your alive,your a human"

"Look lila I can feel this thing between us, ik you love me"

"I do but I should at least break up with jake"
"I'll do it tomorrow"
"Can I join ur school , were both 16 and im now alive so"
"Yh we can't give off whatevers happening doe"
"Yh but after you break up I wanna get to know u lila"
Same, same but this seems so unreal
"Lets go to bed" i say
"I'll go sleep on the sofa" he gets off the bed when I catch his hand and pull him back
"Stay i dont wanna sleep alone" I say
"OK big spoon or lil spoon"
"Cuddling hmmmm I wanna be small spoon , we can take turns everyday"
He rapped his hands around me
I was like a little Teddy bear
He was soo tall compared to me