My voice is always cool,
My steps are straight and light,
You've never seen me break,
No, you've never known my nights.
I look a little desperate,
You say it's all "alright",
'There's no need to be depressed',
But you don't know what I fight inside.
The grins and laughs are easy,
It's the happiness that's hard to feign,
The mirror mocks my swollen eyes,
The floor's stained with shades of my pain.
I'm entirely undeserving,
Of hope, love, each sunrise,
I'm damned to spend life yearning,
To be worthy of a smile.
I'm chained to your expectations,
Chasing your dreams,
Mine fade at your stare,
I'm weaker than I seem.
Sometimes I wish I never was,
And hope to never be,
The 'im' in your perfection,
I'm sorry for being me.
