I was scared. I've never been put in that kind of situation. I never thought I would have to be. You scared me. Why did you have to be so aggressive. Why couldn't you leave me alone. I was happy.
Of course you never told your family why.. just a crazy girl they wanted to cause drama with a restraint order..
if only they knew or anyone knew how you were.
I was scared to go to my apartment. I was scared to be out in public. I was afraid of you. But I still loved you, more than myself.
When the police wanted to charge you with assault and kidnapping I begged them to not.. I was afraid for your future. But I did not tell you what actions to make.
That fear led to isolation with you.
You violated & I was too scared to speak up. You told me over & over it was my fault and I saw it coming. Treated me like I was property and I had to behave to your liking..
It's insane looking back and thinking about the positions you put me in. It hurts that I couldn't walk away or ask for help then really accept it.
Now it's tough. Being positive and surrounded by loved ones. It is tough excepting the real love and consideration because it just reminds me what I deserve and what I did not deserve. It feels like I hit brick walls.
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Ficción GeneralI can't stay up all night and freeze in the middle of my day anymore with these thoughts. For two years I was verbally, mentally, and physically abused and he got away with it. I want to feel like I have a voice, but I'm also very afraid to speak u...
