My slight obsession with pineapples

Day 2

So I'm writing this in the middle of the day even though nothing exciting has happened or is bound to happen. But I want to write down all my feelings about friendship. Idrk. I'm having some, I guess, bad inner thoughts about my 'friends'. like I have friends and all that but I don't really have one best friend. I think I need one but every time I think I've found one, they go and treat me the same as other people around them and it pisses me off.

I recently made a new friend who was previously friends with my 'best friend'. I really do like her but I get drunk on jealousy. So I have/had a guy best friend who I admittedly did like. We had been friends for the two years I had been at my new school. We had our occasional fights but we always made up. Recently I had had some emotional thoughts in thinking I was depressed. Anyway he said that I could talk to him about anything and so I did. How did that turn out? After I explained how I was feeling, he started bitching about me to my new friend (his old friend). See the thing that with us being friends she could tell me all of what he said. Haha to him. So I saw all his messages and him saying I'm attention seeking and all this shit. Tbh he's the one attention seeking. He dresses all grunge just to act cool while wearing boots and shorts. Umm what? Oh and btw he can't pull that look off. Tbh I don't care if he sees this. I need better people in my life and he doesn't have to be one of them. Sorry if this is kinda short and not what you were expecting. I'll try to keep posting everyday. :)

Good day people xx 🍍🍉