The all knowing

Chapter Twenty-six

I was bored to say the least. Ciel had put me under house arrest until they had found Harold and made sure he was taken care of or found dead. Ciel said that if he found out I was alive again, he might try and come back to harm me despite my existence being alright now

That meant no leaving the manor, no going shopping and no visiting undertakers shop. The only time I got to see him was when he came to visit and that was every few days because of how busy his line of work had become. I had nothing to do at the manor, it was boring, I could rarely hang out with the servants because they had work and the same was applied to Sebastian and Ciel. It had been going on for a little over four weeks and it had taken more of a toll on me than I thought it would

Seeing as I was alone for the majority of days, I had nothing to do but think about everything. But the thing that got to me the most was my death, the image of Harald smiling as I took my last breath was permanently burned into my head. Awake or asleep, his face haunted my memories, his sickening smile, his three butlers that watched with emotionless eyes as I bled out on the floor, it was driving me crazy. Being alone really showed me how much I needed the distraction of everyone else around me, the silence was deafening and infuriated me to no end, I wasn't angry at Ciel or undertaker or even Harold, I was angry at myself.

The day I was killed, I was weak, I was a coward, Ciel would have expected me to fight with every last inch of life I had in me. Instead I let myself be killed, I could have fought, to have found a better way to fix this but I didn't. I just let them murder me as if I were nothing but a small sacrifice, I knew I was more than that but recently I just wasn't sure anymore, if I can't protect myself how am I supposed to protect those around me?

Since my resurrection I've been feeling different, and not in a good way, my thoughts have been eating me away every time I'm alone. It was horrible, I just wanted it to stop, which is why I always beg Ciel to let me sit in the study with him but he usually says no seeing as I would be a distraction. This ate away at me even more, is that all I was to them? A distraction? A nuisance? It's almost like the voices had minds of their own, when they said something it was like a completely different person was talking to me. Sometimes it wasn't thoughts either, it was like an actual human in my head talking to me but what they said wasn't good

I stood at Ciel's study door and knocked quietly, I felt nervous as I waited for a response but after a few seconds I heard a faint 'come in'. I slowly open the door and walk in with my hands behind my back. Ciel looks up from his paper work for a split second before returning to it

Coward

"Yes?" He asks, toneless, when he talked I felt the little bit of confidence I had in me drain away. I ignored the voice in my head and gave him a small smile

"I-I was wondering if it would be alright for me to hang out in here for a little while?" I asked quietly, he let out a sigh and turned to face me

"As I said before, I am extremely busy and in no need for distractions" He answers making me bow my head in disappointment, I went to leave but Ciel's voice stopped me

"Sebastian, keep her entertained for a while" He says making my head snap towards Sebastian who bowed at Ciel with a smile

"Yes, my lord" He says before looking at me and smiling, making me smile. Finally I had some one to hang out with, he walked over and we walked out of the study side by side

"What would you like to do, Shelby?" Sebastian asks making me shrug

Evil

"I don't care, literally anything will do" I say, making him chuckle. Evil? Sebastian wasn't evil, sure he was a demon but that's just rude, but then it could be trying to warn me, god don't be paranoid. Sebastian would never betray any of you, he can't