With The Help of Clifford

Chapter One: surprise

It was a gloomy morning, the sun still hasn't risen and I could still see some of the stars of the night. I rumbled out of bed, great Monday I thought. I grabbed my phone and looked at the blank screen, feeling a little empty inside. I was used to the feeling but it still stung like a bee. I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. 'God I hate myself' I thought, my eyes becoming teary. I heard a knock on the bathroom door.

"Rose, I need to use the bathroom!" Yelled my brother, even at 6am he was as loud as a dragon. I quickly wiped the tears off my face and brushed my teeth and washed my face. "Come in " I responded.

"Are you ok?"

" Not really, but it's fine." I replied walking back to my room to get ready for school.

I had a weird sense of style; sometimes I was girly, sometimes It was skater and sometimes both. Even though I suffered from depression and was really self conscious, I still liked to fool people into thinking that everything was ok. I always made sure I looked presentable but deep down inside I was slowly, quietly suffering, with no one to hear my cry. Today was one of those days I wanted to look presentable, it was the day before holiday break and Christmas was in two days! Today me and my friends planned a little party during lunch so I threw on my black skater skirt, knee high socks, cute booties, white tee shirt and a cardigan. I took my makeup bag and started to dab my concealer on all my imperfections which to me was my whole face. I put on some powder and a little blush. I began to put my mascara and eyeliner on as my dark brown eyes began to pop. I added my favorite dark lipstick. I put my hair down, it was long and dark brown. It was wavy like I had it in braid for days; it was a mess, but there was no time to fix it.

I got into my orange jeep, ahead of me I saw the sun beginning to rise, mezmorized by its beauty as I sat there and just watched. I realized I was gonna be late and got out of my trance, turning on the car the radio started and the heat blew. I began to backup out of my mini drive way. 'Another day' I thought as I began to drive away. I parked in the senior parking lot which was full of everyone I hated. I parked remotely close to the front of the school to avoid any stares and laughs. I got out the car and immediately spotted my best friend Adelaide pulling in with her white 2012 Hyundai. She parked right next to me and got out saying "What's cookin good looking! Love the outfit you look like a doll"

"Ha ha nice joke. Did u bring the gifts?" I responded, for the night before we were wrapping the gifts we bought for our small group of friends.

"I'm serious Rose! And Yea of course, they're in the trunk, but I'd figure we get them right before the party" she replied as we began to walk away.

"Good idea"

Adelaide Had long brown curly hair that looked like a movie stars; straight on top but perfect curls on the bottom. She had dark green eyes and was pale and tall. She loved Christmas especially when we traded gifts. We began to walk in to the double doors of the school. I saw my ex and immediately tried to avoid him, pushing Adelaide in the other direction. "What's wrong Rose?"

"I just saw Daniel, and wanted to avoid him. Not in the best mood" I replied as we kept walking.

Daniel was one of the cutest guys in our grade. He was tall, had dark brown curly hair, beautiful hazel eyes and a skater style. So many girls drooled over him. Which is why when we broke up, they were all so happy. He and I had been dating for a year, I really loved him and I thought he really loved me. Over the summer before senior year started, I slipped into really bad depression. I wouldn't get out of bed, wouldn't eat or sleep. My family was always working so I was basically alone. All I wanted was some one to be there for me but he didn't understand me. Instead he made me feel worse and our relationship went down hill from there. I still loved him, but I could never be with someone who didn't understand me and couldn't handle what I was going through.

When the period before lunch came, I began to get a rush of anxiety. My eyes got teary and my stomach began to hurt like a blade was pushing through it. I walked into the classroom and immediately put my head down. All of a sudden, depression came over me and all I wanted to do was cry and sleep. I had people asking "Rose, are you ok?" and of course I responded with "Yea just tired." Daniel walked into the classroom, just what I needed. My anxiety got worse and I just couldn't wait for lunch to come. As soon as the bell rang I ran out of the classroom before anyone said anything else to me.
When I got to my locker, Adelaide was already waiting for me, gifts in hand. "Sorry I didn't wait for you, I was just really excited to get your gift." she said before I even asked. Something that I loved about our friendship is that it's like we were able to predict what the other was gonna say. "It's ok." I replied

"I wanna give you your gift now because I don't want the other girls to see. I know you've been really gloom lately so I hope this cheers you up." She said handing me a light blue envelope. I slowly began to open it, the suspense killing me. I finally pulled out 2 VIP 5SOS tickets. My eyes teary, I screamed and jumped like a little kid who just got a pony for Christmas.

"OMG OMG OMG Adelaide you're the most amazing person ever. How did, what, who" I said the words coming out like vomit.

"Rose breath, take a deep breath. Then talk." she replied. I quickly calmed down and before saying anything gave her a hug and thanked her. "How did you get these? They basically sold out within the first few minutes." I asked

"Funny story.. Remember that guy I told you I've been talking to?"

"Yea why?"

"Well that guy is Luke Hemmings. I told him about you and a little of what's been going on. He immediately offered me the tickets"

"Wait. You mean to tell me your dating Luke Hemmings?"

"Mhm but shhh it's a secret and no one can know. Got that?"

"Got it. Thank you so much and tell him I said thank you to and that I can't wait to meet him and the boys." I replied still in complete shock.

My mood boosted immediately after Adelaide gave me her gift. I couldn't wait for the concert and meeting the boys, but I had no idea what was ahead of me.