The diary of a timelord

Change

Change. One thing that's always present in life. Any kind of life even us aliens who were born on another planet. What is change though? To every person it's different and comes in many different forms. For some it's a huge breakthrough, for others it comes in the form of lots of events moving quickly causing emotional impact bad or good.
In all forms change is a good beautiful thing. Even when it comes in the form of rough hard times. Each change through life moves us forward, it drives us towards the future and clarifies the beauty of who we are and what point in time we all reside in.

Change good or bad transforms us. So we no longer stay the person we were before. Some changes are drastic others small but all vital and complex and amazing. As I go through life no matter where I am, in space or on earth watching the hours and months and years pass by I will always look back at my life so far and think of the many changes that brought me to where I am now, and how much different people I've transformed from in the past.

For my people. Change is something that impacts us in a very unique way to most. We are literally transforming into a brand new person every so often in our long life. We regenerate. We change our eyes our face,our entire personality and looks. Becoming a entirely new person, but yet still retaining a lot of the past as to what made us who we were and who we are now.

It's a very painful and emotional process that we've gotten used to over the centuries as a people. As Gallifreyians and Timelords. We know this pain of change and the will to keep going through the darkness to find the shining lights of the stars to guide our way and the people in the universe that touch our hearts and allow us to glow with love and truth and beauty.

"We all change, when you think about it, we're all different people; all through our lives, and that's okay, that's good, you've gotta keep moving, so long as you remember all the people that you used to be. I will not forget one line of this, not one day, I swear." -11th Doctor

I've changed so often it's honestly a bit hard to remember who I was in the past and define who I am. Because of how brightly I shine in my abilities and power I've been attacked plenty of times by the enemies of mine who wish to control me and my power. They've caused me to lose a lot of my memories that helped clarify who I am. It's definitely not easy the life of the universe.

I'm thankful for the people in my life around me that have helped me regain different memories and parts of who I am. I don't know how I would ever survive and thrive without my loved ones. The beautiful souls that keep me fighting and flying.

Those people have been my teammates, Grey and our newest one Layla. The Doctor and my lover Dreykel.

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Each of these people I have beautiful history with and gives me a special ability. For Grey she keeps me fighting, giving me confidence and determination to stand up for what's right and never stop fighting for it. For Layla she gives me hope for the future as my parallel that the light we both shine is amazing and must never be hidden. For the doctor he isn't perfect like no one is. But he is my dad and he will never give up on protecting me, his love in his two hearts for the universe and the simple people in it, inspires me to help as many people of the universe as I can. And Dreykel.. oh my Dreykel. He helps me shine brightly in all that I am and supports me through my struggles clearing my way through all the tears and pain urging me to endure and live bringing me joy and love.

Long ago with Dreykel I had my childhood on Gallifrey. Me and him always played together while the doctor was in his office and we were bored. He was from a family that was seclusive and kept to themselves most of the time. The Doctor always was busy in his office making up learning formats for the Gallifreyians at the academy and he couldn't watch me a lot. He didn't like us playing making a lot of noise pretending to have battles out in the hallway and laughing. heh we
Annoyed him a lot and got told off by the more stricter of the Gallifreyians.

Long ago I had never knew I had found someone so perfect for me. Dreykel.. my childhood friend who ran around playing make believe with me, long dark hair and that amazing smile of his. He was a hybrid he wasn't fully timelord. He was Kaled. Part of the race that was before they became daleks. With darker eyes and specific differences in their biology and make up.

It was probably the reason the doctor and others didn't like me being with him because hybrids especially kaleds were frowned upon on Gallifrey. Rassilon's rule made that to be so.. no hybrids were allowed. He wasn't allowed to go to the academy or join the rest of us.

Though we all know that didn't stop me from loving him.

So as change keeps going, life keeps going and ebbing and flowing. People keep coming and going. What's lost is never truly lost forever, memories and love and beauty of life in the past and the present. Through the pain and the emotional s and all that's in between. I know change is building who I am today and outlining who I was in the past. I vow to never stop changing.

Though through all this. I must never forget who I am. One star in the dazzling beautiful universe. Shining brightly through the darkness.