His Madness Is My Happiness [COMPLETED]

Part VIII

Dali-dali akong lumabas upang tingnan kung anong nangyari at halos magimbal ako sa nakita ko.

Nanginginig na lumapit ako sa kung nasaan si Veronico.

He's hanging.

I watch his face as he slightly smile at me and uttered something. Without any second thought, dali-dali akong naghanap ng upuan at kutsilyo para ipantanggal sa lubid. Naiiyak ako habang pinuputol ko ang lubid na naka-kabit sa sanga ng puno.

I didn't know he could be like this. I am expecting for worse but this is not the worse I am expecting. Mas masama pa ito sa mga iniisip ko.

Idiniin ko pa ang kutsilyo sa lubid kahit na napupuno na ng mga luha ang mga mata ko. Halos hindi ko na maklaro ang pagmumukha niya pero mas binilisan ko pa ang pag putol nito.

I look at his face when I saw his eyes are going to close. "You piece of shit! Open your eyes! Why are you doing this to me?!" I shouted at him to make him awake at dali-daling sinundan ang sasabihin ko. "Jerk, I lo-Ahhh!"

Natutop ko ang bibig ko nang maputol ang lubid at bumagsak ang katawan niya sa lupa. Halos mangapa ako sa pagbabalanse sa ibabaw ng upuan bago dali-daling bumaba upang lapitan siya.

He kept on coughing while he's holding his neck at nakita kong namumula na ito. I sob while watching him rubbing it from left to right.

I want to punch him for doing that kind of thing. I want to tell him I am very worried at him. I want to nag him how bullshit he was. And I want to tell him... something.

I shove off my thoughts at nanginginig na napatitig na naman ako sa kaniya at dahan-dahang umupo sa damuhan habang salo ko ang aking mukha.

That was close.

I really don't know what I am going to do with this person. He's going to break through any time. And what if wala ako? What if hindi ko siya nabantayan? What if umuwi ako kanina? Then he could be dead by now?

I just sat there while crying-feeling the cold breeze of the December night. Ang daming nangyari sa loob ng araw na 'to. Paano pa kaya sa susunod na mga linggo? Makakaya ko pa ba? How can I take care of him when I still have responsibilities to face after this day? Walang magbabantay sa kaniya and I can't afford of losing him. I don't know. I just can't...

But the real question here is, why am I still staying kahit alam kong nakakatakot na itong nangyayari sa buhay ko? Raven Evangelista is a puzzle to me. How did he went through this alone?

"H-hey!" he snap at me.

Nilingon ko siya na tila walang alam sa nangyari kanina. He looked so cool, poised and I bet it's a part of his disease? He really forgot what happened earlier and I want to tell him how he made me feel worried so bad.

But I knew better. He can't understand me at magmumukha lang akong baliw sa harapan ng ibang mga katauhan niya.

"Veronico," i trailed first before continuing what I supposed to ask. "A-are you f-fine?"

"Veronico, what?!" his brows formed a straight line and he suddenly pursed his lips.

I stared at him for seconds bago napahagulgol muli. How could he? I was all worried and unable to do anything earlier ta's malalaman ko lang na ibang katauhan na naman niya itong nasa harap ko?

Gago!

I wanted to shout it in front of him. Kinakabahan ako kanina tapos ngayon parang wala lang sa kaniya? Crap, you are the worst man alive, whatever your name is, asshole!

"Wait, why are you crying for Pete's sake?!" He shouted when he saw my tears streaming down on my face. I saw how uneasy he is at parang nagsusumano kung ano ang dapat niyang gawin.

I smash his chest while still crying at pilit niya namang sinasalo ang mga hampas ko. "You asshole! Pinakaba mo ako! I thought you will leave me!"

"What?! I don't even know you in the first place, Miss." He uttered amusingly.

I raise my head upwards-meeting his gaze.

"Drake Gonzalez..." I trailed. "the crazy veterinarian." I whispered while staring at him. I don't know. I just felt like he is Drake for now.

"Pardon?" He uttered while bending a little-trying to hear the words I blurted out few seconds ago.

"Crazy... You're crazy!"

"Miss, I am sorry but you need to get out here." He said nang mapansin na iba na ang mga sinasabi ko.

I panic. He can't be alone! After seeing him capable of doing something like that? I better stay here-than to leave and get back, unsure if he's still here.

"N-no!" I stop him nang hinawakan na niya ang palapulsuhan ko. "You might hurt yourself again!"

"W-what?! Miss you're the one who's crazy here!"

"Don't shout at me!"

I roamed my eyes finding some excuses when I remembered something. "Look! It's Dominic!"

I pointed somewhere like I was pointing a cat from a one particular place. True to my expectation, he bites it. I mean, I remembered he has a pet named, Dominic-kahit wala naman talaga akong nakikita. He's just seeing some things.

"My cat! Miming!" He bent and slowly raised his hand as if he is holding something.

I cry again while watching thw view. It hurts. It's still been days since I knew him but my heart already flinch when I get to see him- hurting. It seems like I am hurting too while seeing him like this.

I can't hold this anymore.

I run towards him and hugged him from the back. I embraced him like I was going to lose him. I silently cried-sniffing his scent and wanting more of him. I can't deny the fact that I am falling for this psychotic punk. I know it's lame to hear but my hearts says yes and so does my mind. Every person in someone's life has it's own purpose. And maybe I am that person who will accept him whoever he is. This man needs me and I will gladly accept whatever he can be.

"I love y-"

I was about to confess when he let go of me and shouted in horror.

"You will hurt me!" He suddenly shout and run away until he reached the gate and I did the same thing while following him.

I saw him opened the gate at walang pag-alinlangan na lumabas ito.

"Drake!!" I shouted-trying to convince him to stop.

"Go away! I am leaving!" He fired back na agad ding pagtulo ng mga luha ko.

Relax, Madi. He's just not on his usual self today. Patience.

"N-no! You can't leave me!" I shouted back-starting to beg him.

"I don't believe in you! You don't love me!"

"Drake..." I whispered when I stop from running nang hindi ko na makita ang bulto niya.

He left.

I bended my knees on the floor whole still looking at the road-hoping for him to get back. My tears are pooling already and I wanna shout for this madness.

"Excuse me? Are you okay?" I look behind me when I saw a woman on her thirties at agad namang akong umiling-iling.

I just don't want another lie for today. Benta na ako sa impyerno dahil sa dami ng mga kasalanan ko.

I am not okay!

"I saw you.. You were running as if you are chasing after someone."

"It's the man I love I am chasing." I whispered at unti-unting pinunasan ang mga luha ko.

"B-but I didn't -"

"I have to go." I said at tumayo na mula sa pagkakaluhod ko. I just look at the woman-trying to weigh her emotion.

I look away from her nang hindi ko siya narinig na magsalita ulit.

I need to wash.