Villain or not, I love you..~

Do you realize..... - Ch 10

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Todoroki's POV
"What happened to you Shocchan?"

I tensed at the question. I knew exactly what she was talking about, and I figured she'd be curious one way or another. 'I can lie...But I don't wanna betray her trust, or lose her as a friend. If I tell her she could be in danger from other villains, even if she can defend herself..'

I felt the greenette's eyes piercing through my skin. I took hold on my slacks and tightened my grip on them, trying to breath.

'She'll hate me, and she'll leave. Just like Touya. Just like Mom...Heck even Fuyumi barely talked to me..I'll lose her and then I'll lose everyone! No one will talk to me or even acknowledge me anymore. I'll be alone, by myself, with no purpose...I don't wanna lose her or anyone, I can't stand too...I swear I'll die-.'

I suddenly was cut out of my thoughts when one of my hands were gently lifted onto something fluffy, and someone rubbing gentle circles on my back.
"Sho it's okay, just breath..You can play with my hair if you want..?"

I began fidgeting with the small girls hair and trying to get my breathing on track. I was careful of the wrap around her forehead as I messily braided her hair. She turned back around to me and grabbed my hands, "Better now..?" I slowly nodded, still trying to think of a reply to her first question.

"If you don't wanna say, you don't have to right now-."

"No." She looked up at me, worried.

"You're a really great friend and you deserve the truth." I saw her wince a bit, but kept going.

"Izuka, I am so sorry. I feel like I've done nothing but lie to you.." She tilted her head a bit, kinda like a puppy.

"I'm so sorry...I swear I am.! I wanted to tell you, but you'd probably hate me and never want to see me again. You'd leave and I'd be alone. Just like always, I don't wanna be alone though-."

Her grasp on my hand tightened. "Sho. I swear, whatever is going on won't drive me away that easily.! I'm pretty tough ya know." She flexed her biceps, I smiled a little. "If you weren't telling me some thing, you probably had a good reason as to why, and that's okay..We've only been, uh f-friends for a month or two, so I get it if you not completely okay on the idea of sharing secrets yet. If you want to tell me what's up, and think I'll run away, then go ahead, try me! If you don't wanna tell me yet, that's okay!! Don't stress yourself out too much."

I pulled her close to me, so that she was basically sitting on my lap, facing me. I hugged her, tightly and buried my face in her soft hair. "Thank you Izu.." I mumbled. I heard her giggle, and chuckled myself.

"But I should really tell you...So here it goes..!" I removed my arms from her waist, and my face from her hair. I saw Kiri and the others standing outside my door, giving me a thumbs up.
"I uh...mmmm...I-I'm a..heh..Im a villain.."
I mumbled the last part, and she looked at me confused.

"Shocchan please speak up. When you mumble you sound like me..!" She gave me a small grin.

"Okay.." I took a breath....

"I'mapowerfulvillainalongwitheveryoneelseherethatsellsandcreatespowerfulsweaponsforothervillainsorgangsandI'vekilledpeopleandI'vebeendoingthissinceIwas16eventhoughIwasgoingtobeaheroandimsosorryandcompletelyunderstandifyouhatemeandneverwanttoseemeoranyoneelsehereeveryagainimsorryilegithatemyselfrightnow!!"

She blinked a couple times.

Kiri and everyone else came into the room, staring at the green haired girl in my lap, nervously waiting for a response.

She stared at me. She then slowly turned her head and looked at everyone else. She stopped at Bakugo.
"Kacchan..?" He nervously stepped forward and nodded. She began to sway a little and I was the first to take note of it as she put her hand to her head.

She began to mumble, worrying me even more.

"I thought you were Japanese." She looked at me, and said that with a straight face. I flicked her forehead and sighed. "Do you realize what I just said? Do you realize I could legit kill you right here right now, at any moment?" I blurted out.

I felt her tremble a bit, and regretted what I had just said. "Umm...Listen Sho..Everyone.." she looked up at all of us. "You all seem like very kind people, whether you are villains or not....I am gonna need time to process this...and u-uuh.."

I saw her small hand grip the sheets of my bed.
"Izuka..?"
"Deku I.."
"Midoriya..."
Everyone began murmuring amongst themselves as they became stiffer, and their stares became more intense as they waited for an answer.
"Izuchan please-."

She gripped her hair, screaming, "I-I'm sorry I can't think..!!" She suddenly went sprinting out the door. I jumped off my bed ready to follow her, "Midoriya wait!" I felt a grip on my arm and looked to see Bakugo. "Don't go after her Shoto..She's never been the best at thinking on the spot. Especially when there is pressure on her. Just give her some time to think.." He let go of my arm and quickly exited the room, Kirishima following behind him.

"Boss-."
"Please leave." I replied coldly.
"Come on we just want to help-."
"I SAID GET OUT!!" I sent a small layer of ice near the others feet's. They looked at me, some scared, some worried. They all left the room, leaving me alone.

I locked the door and opened my closet. I got out an old bottle of wine, and drank till I passed out. 'Well there goes my new friend huh? Just like that..'
I quietly chuckled to myself before being met with darkness...

Izuka's POV
I ran.
I ran the fastest I ever had in my life.
I couldn't face him. Or Bakugo..Or anyone...

I felt angry, upset, exhausted, and the running wasn't helping.

I slammed my apartment door shut as I ran inside.
'Confused...Upset...Angry...Exhausted...Guilty..' I was stuck in my mind. Searching through it, trying to find the right word or words to explain my feelings.

'Angry...Exhausted..' Those were the two that came up the most.

I looked around the small living room. I tried to focus on something, anything to calm myself...

But I couldn't.

"I ran away...I ran from him..." I mumbled to myself, reaching my hand out to grab something.

"I broke my promise....I lied to him.." I tightened my grip on the object in my hand.

"I left...Left him alone.."

I grabbed my hair.

"He hates me.."

I brought my hair closer to the object.

"I lost a friend...and it's my fault.."

I began to fall. Falling faster and faster, into that horrible darkness...But no one ever caught me this time..

'my fault..'

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Oh boi...For those who might be confused as to why she passed out- it'll be explained next chapter. Sorry if this chapter seemed a bit rushed or messy at certain parts..! I might come back and rewrite it later..Idk just yet.
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Word Count: 1,155