diana

04// You Knew?

"We need to talk," Autumn directs this to me. I look at her shocked,"About what?" She looks at me concerned laced in her hazel eyes, "Harry." She doesn't look the least bit happy.

Oh no. Did Harry tell her or did it accidentally come out? I stare at her, emotionless,"What about him?" "I know what y'all did last night." She replied. I gulp, then I look at Rose, who is not the least bit happy. Just great. "What did we do?" I asked, hoping its not what I'm thinking. Man, I need a cigarette. "He told me yesterday," Autumn breathes almost in tears. Oh god. "what did he say?" I asked, annoyed. She looks up, blinking, "You two had sex." Fuck.. "What do you want me to do about it?" I huff. She looks angry, "I want you to stay away from him." I laugh, "What makes you think I'm going to stay away? I always get what I want." I smirk. I'm such a bitch. She looks at me, appalled, "I'm going to be your worst nightmare." I laugh. Is she serious? Autumn walks away flipping her brown hair over her shoulder.

I look over my shoulder looking at a pissed off Rose. "What?" I laugh. She shakes her head walking away.

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FRIDAY.

Its finally Friday. You know what that means? PARTY. I pick out this sexy laced red dress that comes down mid thigh and shows off my ass. I slip on my black heels which give me height. I grab my pack of cigarettes and put them in my bag along with my red lipstick. I also put in some extra condoms. Just in case. Rose and I walk out the door. Rose is wearing a black strapless dress. She looks hot, and I bet Liam will be all over her. Zayn is already there, and I can't wait to see him. (Picture of their outfits in sidebar)

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I walk through the crowd of drunk ass people who are either doing body shots, or sucking each others faces off. I laugh. I walk into the kitchen. I open the fridge to get a bottle of vodka. I love this stuff. I open the lid to chug some of the delicious taste as it burns going down my throat. I wipe my mouth, chugging some more. I walk out of the kitchen into the massive hallway to the living room. I see Rose and Liam by the TV, chatting away. Out of the corner of my eye, I see an all to familiar couple. I turn around, fully. Autumn and Harry. Just perfect. I'm so mad at him right now. How could he do that to me? I'm such an idiot. I don't realize that I'm staring until he looks up at me making Autumn turn around. She glares at me, and I turn around. Where the hell is Zayn?

I need a cigarette, I tell myself as I'm walking outside. I take my pack of cigarettes out of my bag and grabbed one. Lighting it up, I let the smoke fill my lungs as I exhaled. Someone clears their throat. I look up to see a smiling Harry. Oh god. I put the cigarette between my lips and blow slowly. He licks his lips, "Diana." I take another drag before answering,"What the fuck do you want?" He looks shocked at my outburst. "I want to apologize." He answers and I look at him, "for what?" He stands straight up, "For telling Autumn." I laugh. I let out the burning cigarette on the cool brick steps. I stand up, "Go fuck yourself, Harry." I walk away not letting him have a chance to response.

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The party is becoming boring. This is so lame. Rose already left with Liam. I bet they're going to go fuck. Why not? Liam's gorgeous, but I would never do that to Rose. I haven't seen or heard about Harry which is good. I still haven't see Zayn. I get up to go look for him. Finally, I spot him in the kitchen with some girl. Her blonde hair is slightly long, and she has nice legs. Wait a minute?...Is that? She turns around, and my jaw drops. It can't be. Zayn looks up at me and his eyes are huge. Why her? I can't let him see me cry. He never has. I run out of that house as fast as I could.

I stop on the side of the road and sit down. I pull out my pack of cigarettes. I took one out, lighting it up. This can't be happening. Fucking Emma. I can't stand that bitch. I wonder how long this has been going on. I know we're not dating, but I was going to confess tonight. Tears rolled down my cold cheeks. I sniff and throw the cigarette  away. I walk home alone..

I enter our apartment. I go straight up to my room and took this dress off. It was so itchy. I run to the bathroom to get a quick shower. When I'm done, I dress in my comfortable soft shorts and baggy tee. I walk into my room. I fall face first on my bed and let the tears fall. I haven't cried this much since Louis. God, Louis. I haven't seen him in so long. Diana, snap out of it. He hurt you. I know. I hear my door creak open, "Diana?" His husky voice echos. I look at him. Eyes puffy and hair a mess. "What do you want, Zayn?" I don't want to talk to him or even look at him. I feel like such a dumbass. "I'm so sorry," he apologies. I can't even look at him. He takes my hand.. I can't believe I'm sitting here, letting him hold it. "Diana, I was going to tell you. I just didn't know how." "How could you? You knew how much I hated her and you still did this." I cry, tears threatening to fall. I blink them away. He looks at me, "Diana, we aren't together." I'm hurt. I'm numb. I look at him, "I'm in love with you, Zayn." I move my hand away. He stares at me, wide eyed. I'm sure he is confused. He takes a deep breathe, "You can't be in love with me." I whisper, "but I am."

- 2 hours later -

Rose arrives home. "Diana? Are you home?" She calls out. I can't answer her. I'm in to much pain to even think of a word. I'm in the bathroom in my room. Sitting in the empty bathtub, I put my knees to my chest. I've cried all of my tears away. The bathroom door creaks open, Rose rushes to my side. "What's wrong?" She asked, concern laced in her voice. I look at her with makeup smeared and hair a mess, "Zayn left me." I can barely breathe. Rose looks at me, "Why did he leave?" "I kicked him out." I spoke, emotionless. She looks stunned, "Why though, babe?" I look at my hands, "I saw him with Emma." She doesn't look shocked. She knows something. "Rose, what do you know?" She looks at me, "Zayn has been going behind your back to her." I'm so angry, "You knew? Why didn't you tell me?" I stand up now, pissed. She looks sad, "Because I knew this would happen." "You're suppose to be my friend, Rose!" I yell. I can't believe this. I storm out of that room and out of the front doors. I run to Harry's house. I knock loudly. He opens the door with one swing motion. He looks indescribably beautiful. He looks shocked to see me, "Diana, what are you doing her?" I clear my throat. "Is Autumn here?" He shakes his hand, no. I don't waste any time. I crash my lips to his. He doesn't pull away. I need this. I so need this. "Diana, are you sure about this?" I look at him with desire, "Please."