My Shattered Heart (Lukanette FF)

Numb

Marinette's POV
I can feel the tears on my face, but I feel so numb. I stare down, my vision blurry from the tears. On the ground far below I can barely make out the form of his body. I feel Luka as he pulls me close to him. I can hear the people below screaming, and the sirens as they race to the scene. My legs feel like jelly and I slide to the ground. I notice something on the ground beside me. I reach for it and realize it's a piece of paper.

Dear Mari, I know you will be the one to find this and I want to apologize. What I've done to you is a terrible thing. I can never forgive myself. Ever since then I've missed you, I know I don't have any right to but I do. I'm sorry that you will have to see what I'm about to do. I keep ruining your life and I can't do that anymore.  Please don't be sad that I'm gone, be happy I can't ruin your life anymore. I wish things had turned out differently. Maybe if I hadn't rejected you we would all be happy right now. But you wouldn't be truly happy. I see the way you look at him, and I envy it. I've never had someone look at me with such love and adoration. Continue to love and be there for him.  I hope someday you can forgive me, I just won't be around when that time comes. Once again I'm sorry for all the trouble I've caused you. Love, Adrien

I read the letter over and over again, wishing this was all just a dream. When Luka grabs the paper and gently pulls it from my hands I look up at him. He reads the note and pulls me into a hug. We sit there crying in each other's arms. After a few minutes the police make it to the top and see us. They escort us down and give us some blankets. I can see the body as they carry it away on a stretcher. The pool of blood where he had landed was being cleaned up. There were so many people standing there crying. I'm still wishing this was a dream, that I'd wake up and it would all be over.

Alya's POV
I was watching tv with Nino when I saw something on the news. I couldn't believe it, he had killed himself. "Doesn't Mari like to go to the Eiffel Tower at night?" Nino asked, fear in his voice. Without answering I ran out the door and got in the car, Nino not far behind. I drove to the Eiffel Tower and got out running. I didn't get far before I was stopped by an officer. "I'm sorry ma'am but this area is off limits." He said, his voice emotionless.

"My friends are here! I need to see them!" I yell, trying to get through. "Are you talking about two teenagers named Marinette and Luka?" He asked, still showing no emotion. "Yes that's them! Are they ok?" I ask, worried. "They tried to save him when he jumped but they couldn't so they're pretty shaken up, other then that they're ok." The officer says before leading us over to an ambulance where Marinette and Luka were sitting. "Mari!" I yell, pulling her into a hug. She doesn't say anything as she cries into my shirt.

After a while the officers said that we could take Marinette and Luka home. I led them to my car and drove them back to my house. When we arrived I pulled them up to my room and told them to get some sleep. I returned to the living room and laid on the couch with Nino. We talked for a few minutes before I drifted off to sleep.

Marinette's POV
After Alya had brought us to her house Luka and I had gone to bed. I lay awake for hours, still feeling numb. I eventually drift off, only to have my sleep plagued by nightmares. All I can see is his body, broken and bloody. His face as he looked at me for the last time.

I recall every encounter I ever had with him, while he was Adrien and Cat Noir. I remember the first time I met him, I had thought he was putting gum in my seat. And later that day as he gave me his umbrella, when I developed a crush on him. The first time I fought with him as superheroes, still learning how to use our powers. And the times he came to my house or we met on the rooftops to talk. I also remember the time he rejected me, the pain I had felt. When he had kissed me, the betrayal and fear I felt. I remember it all, and the memories haunt my dreams.

I wake up and check the time, 4 am. I look over at Luka, still asleep beside me. Moving carefully I get out of bed, trying not to wake him up. I walk to the bathroom, looking in the mirror. My face is red and stained by tears, my hair is a mess. I grab a towel and start the shower. I can feel fresh tears flowing down my face as I start to undress. Stepping under the steaming water I sit down. Holding my knees I sit there and cry.

I don't know how long I sat there before I hear a knock on the door. "Hey Mari it's me. Are you ok?" Luka asks from behind the door. "Not really." I say, my throat scratchy from crying. "Do you want me to come in?" He asks, I can hear the worry in his voice. "Yes please." I say, happy to have some company. Luka opens the door and sits down. We both sit there quietly for a few minutes.

After a while the water starts to cool, causing shivers to go down my spine. I turn the water off and open the curtain slightly. I look down at Luka who had fallen asleep again. I grab the towel and wrap it around my body before stepping out of the shower. I shake Luka slightly, waking him up. He opens his eyes, blinking a few times. "What time is it?" He asks through a yawn. " Almost 5." I say after checking my phone. "You should go back to bed when your done." Luka says, still blinking away sleep. I nod before pushing him out of the bathroom.