What I think.

Dec 14/14

Watching the person you love fall inlove with someone else is heartbreaking. I mean it. Heartbreaking. If you don't know what that feels like than I would second guess your feelings about a person. But that's what happened to me today.

I wasn't planning on it. I don't think most people do. But it happened just like that. In a matter of seconds and my heart sank to my stomach. It sat there for god knows how long and then the rage, the pain, the anger, the sadness, the jealously all came out. And I screamed. I was alone in the car waiting for my parents to get out of the store and it was fine because no one heard me. The reason I felt all these emotions at once was yes I was jealous but it was because all this time I had hope and I actually thought that something might've changed and something could've happened between us. But obviously now I know nothing will ever happen. Ever.

After that. The best thing you can do is move on. Move on completely. Not a little bit at a time. And the feelings will come back to you. Of course. It's normal. But you gotta say to yourself this isn't right, if this person you care about so much doesn't care about you then you have no responsibility in caring about them.

Life sucks. It really does. You can hear a million people say move on or life's hard but you gotta pull through. As cliché as those sound it's the truth. Unfortunately.

I was scrolling through Instagram trying to find inspirational quotes and I came across one, I hope you like. It's not long but it means so much.

"Let the ocean worry about being blue."

I want to remind you to stop carrying around stress with you. Just stop. Go for a walk. Listen to music. Do whatever you can to get your mind off of whatever is bothering you and take in this simple peaceful life. It's really not life that is hard. It's us people that make it hard.