I flinched when Ryder raised his whip and slashed Thomas' back again. When I glanced around the room I noticed all people were standing the same way I was. Clutching their stomach while biting their nails.
Thomas had done something wrong, he had gone of the grounds without permission. That was something clearly against the rules. But Ryder, he was being horribly sadistic.
Lucy, how can you even think that, he's your mate. You should be loving and understandimg.
My wolf, Lorey, scowled. I lowered my head with shame, I knew she was right. Buy my heart was always in conflict with my brain. Deep inide, I could never love someone like Ryder. But the thought alone crushed my heart.
When Ryder raised his whip, I turned away and ran to my room. Through the large villa I hurried through while I heard Ryder call my name.
I felt weak, useless. Shaking and in tears I fell on my bed with a thud. I burried my face in the messy sheets, I cried. Sobbing softly I wiped away the tears. If Ryder would see me like this he'd freak out. He would assume I hated him, and he'd get depressed. Awfully depressed.
For days he wouldn't eat, sleep or move. Until I made love to him. To him it was the only thing that would prove my love for him. And then he'd be sweet, caring and honest to me for a couple of days. But after that he'd go back to his old self. Ryder was sick, mentally sick.
It hurt to see my mate struggle with himself, how his own guilt was eating him away. His mind was slowly consumed by the demons within him and his wolf. I tried everything, everything I could to save his soul. But he was too far gone.
"Why are you crying?" Ryder asked monotone. I stiffened and quickly wiped away the last tears. I took a deep breath and turned around.
Ryder's eyes were a deep purple and his cheeks looked sunken in. A pang of guilt hit me and I flinched when I realized that it was my fault he fel this way.
"I wasn't crying baby," I said while I walked towards him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him warmly, but he was like stone underneath my touch.
"Why do you lie to me?" He questioned me. I pushed him away a little to look at his face and saw tears welling up in his eyes. Lorey howled sadly at the sight of our broken mate.
"Hey, look...hey look at me!" I demanded and I pulled his chin down so he had to look at me. "I love you!" I pushed my lips desperately against his. He tried to push me away at first but then slowly became warm and welcoming.
He took my waist and dragged me to my bed, sitting me down on his lap. He started crying even more, so I pushed him closer to me. "I love you," I muttered again against his lips. He started pulling my hair and groaned when I bit his bottom lip softly. His kisses became longing, filled with lust and hunger. I knew exactly what he wanted from me, something I wasn't in the mood to give.
When he started unbuckling my belt I sighed and pushed him away. "Not tonight." I whispered with a sore throat. He looked dissapointed, almost heartbroken.
"But you said you loved me?" He asked with a broken voice and started kissing my neck. But I shook my head and pushed him away. He looked so betrayed and sad when I glanced at him. "Please," he begged "please, I need you, I love you,". He tried to kiss me again but I pushed him away and got off his lap.
"No!"I glared at him.
He looked shocked at my ouburst, but then his left eye twitched and his heartbroken face became filled with anger. I whimpered and backed away until my back was pressed against the wall. He started towards me with the darkest expression I had ever seen.
He hit me. It didn't hurt, but the humiliation was present. I cupped the cheek he slapped and looked at him with tears in my eyes. He was my mate, mates didn't hurt each other?
As soon as our gazes locked he changed back to the heartbroken expression he had before. His eyes fell and I could almost see his humanity dripping out of him. He fell to his knees, his face extremely pale.
No,no,no. Do something, save your mate you stupid human.
Lorey snarled. Tears stained my cheeks and I crawled towards him on hands and knees. "Ryder, I love you!" I cried and I embraced him tightly. He stared at me with dead eyes and I shook him desperately, wanting him to realize that I was still there. I rested his head on my lap while stroking his hair. "I love you, you're my mate, remember. We can feel it," I mumbled and touched his hand to make him feel the spark.
He just stared at me, while tears streamed down his face. I was sobbing too and bowed my head down to kiss him. I took his hand and put it on my breast.
"See? I love you Ryder!" I growled yearning for his humanity to stay with me. I felt like I was holding onto that one last thread. I couldn't let go. So I took of my pants with lots of wiggling. I kissed Ryder passionately and finally he started kissing me back slowly. I sighed in relief when his hands started trailing down my body. "Mine" he growled.
That night, I let Ryder fuck me.
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The months after were worse, Ryder needed my body every night. But he never talked to me, he never even looked at me. Even the pack noticed the changes, Hunter came to ask me about it.
How long it would go on, I didn't know. It seemed endless, an endless nightmare.
The hitting wasn't even the worst part. The worst were the dead eyes of my mate, my other half, my forever. Dull, lifeless, dead.
Nothing was left of Ryder Ethan Hood.
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